Belated St. Patrick’s Day

Mood: I don’t know
Music: Irish songs on the Spectrum music channel
Location: Deeply in my head

Dia dhuit ar maidin agus Lá Fhéile Pádraig Sona Daoibh! Good morning and happy St. Patrick’s day to you all! Belated I wish you this. LOL! I didn’t get around to posting yesterday like I had planned.

Some groaners for you…
Here are a few Irish jokes that I saw one of the people I follow on twitter post and I was amused by the first one.

1. What do you call a knife that cuts 4 loaves of Irish bread at once.
A four loaf cleaver.

2. Why do people wear shamrocks on St Patrick’s day?
Regular rocks are too heavy.

3. Why is it a bad idea to iron a four leaf clover?
Because you shouldn’t press your luck!

One more thing I found amusing, This came from another person on twitter I follow.
“Got my stimmy on St. Patrick’s Day. Call that luck of the IRS.”
Some did have the luck of the IRS I suppose, to those who didn’t, hang in there. It’s coming.

I hope you all had a happy and safe St. Patrick’s day no matter how you celebrated. Unfortunately we didn’t get to do that this year as we hadn’t gotten to go to the grocery store to get the things I needed. I had planned to make a traditional Irish stew, soda bread and I hadn’t yet decided what I was going to make for dessert. I wanted to wake up yesterday morning and make an Irish breakfast complete with real Irish coffee but it didn’t happen. I still plan to do this, it will just be late. I’m not making corn beef and cabbage as that is not truly Irish, Emmy has never had Irish food so I want her to experience that. I just hope she likes it, she did say she’ll try anything once so here’s hoping.

My job coach came over yesterday, I totally forgot she was coming and I was so embarrassed. She told me not to worry about it and we just rescheduled for next Wednesday at 1:00. I need to write these things down I swear. The older you get, the more you begin to forget things. I did read that blueberries improve memory so I think I’ll start eating those more than I already do, maybe it will help. LOL!

This past Tuesday Emmy and I got the first dose of our vaccine. We ended up getting the Pfizer one, we go back for our second dose April 16. I’m not sure how i feel about this really. The first one went alright except I woke up quite a few times Tuesday night with a racing heart. I don’t know if that was a side affect of the shot or if it was just my heart being goofy again. I have gone in so many times about my heart and every time they tell me there’s nothing wrong and my heart is just fine. Don’t get me wrong, I am thankful beyond belief about this but there are times I just don’t feel right. Maybe I worry too much and that’s why i feel weird, i do know that worrying and stress can cause things to happen with your body that isn’t supposed to. Anyway I digress. I didn’t really have any side affects but i was a bit more tired than normal. Emmy had a super sore arm but I didn’t. It ached a little but not near as bad as hers does. I’m scared about the second dose as they said that’s when you could have the worst side affects. I almost wish we had gotten the Moderna because then I’d have a bit of an idea of what to expect as my AHRMS workers and my therapist got that one. Better yet, the Johnson and Johnson one would have been the best because I would have only had to get one does, the downside to that is it is the least affective or so I’ve heard. Honestly, I’d have been willing to risk it. I hate needles. I’ve considered not getting the second dose but Lura told me that I got the first one so I might as well go through with the second. She’s right, we all have to do our part to try and end this pandemic. I miss life the way it used to be but the question is? Will life ever go back to the way it used to be? Only time will tell. Somehow I don’t see it though. That’s tough for me to say as I’m usually the optimistic one. We can only hope and pray it does.

I don’t really have anything planned for the day though I do have my show at 6:00 this evening eastern time. Between a Rock and a Hard Place will air on XTFM, I don’t really have a theme for this show so it’s pretty much anything goes as long as it’s rock or metal. If you want to check me out, visit for listening links or tell Lady A or whatever your choice of smart speaker is to play Xtransmission radio from tune in. Hope to see you there!

Okay, this is the end till next time. I hope you all have a wonderful day filled with love, joy, peace and positivity.
Be good to yourselves and each other.
Practice self-care because it’s good for you.


Hi Ho, Winter the Kitten Here

Mood: Optimistic
Location: Somewhere between here and there
Listening to: I’m Not Okay (I Promise) by My Chemical Romance


I hope this entry finds you all well, I’m doing alright for 6:58 in the morning. I haven’t slept a whole lot but it’s okay. I’m on teamtalk at moment With the dove, we’re having fun hanging out and listening to Spotify. Hello emo playlists! :P.

So what have i been up to lately? Not too terribly much actually.
On Tuesday March 16, Emmy and I are scheduled to receive our Covid-19 vaccine. I’m not sure how I feel about this, on one hand I know that it is something that needs to be done and on the other I’m afraid. I’m not worried because of all of the conspiracy theories out there but due to the shots rapid release. Usually it takes years for vaccines to be tested and tried for side affects and the three that are out now haven’t been out that long. The comforting knowledge is that there have been many people who have gotten the shot and they are okay with minimal side affects. We are hoping that we can get the Pfizer vaccination as it is the most effective but we will take which ever they have for us. I was told that we could reschedule if we didn’t want the one they had that day but if we did that there’s a chance they still might not have the Pfizer one and it could take a while to get in again. I do know I’m glad to be doing my part to keep myself and others safe, I still mask up when I go out and I wash my hands like crazy. Getting the coronavirus once was enough for me, I don’t want that stuff again. No way! To those who have gotten their shot already, awesome! I’m glad you are all alright.

Last week we had our first thunderstorm of the season! It wasn’t much but it was still exciting for me, I absolutely love storms as long as they don’t turn tornatic. I just wish I could still see the lightning, I used to love to sit and watch it. There’s something really beautiful about the way it looks, I get chills thinking about it. We had temps in the fifties and sixties and now we are under a winter storm warning, it’s hard to rap my head around. I shouldn’t be too surprised though, I do live in Minnesota and the weather here is so unpredictable at times. We are expecting to see 5-8 inches of the awful white stuff. Sorry to those who love snow but I dislike it. Don’t get me wrong, it’s pretty and all but it makes travel difficult for us here where we live because they aren’t very good at cleaning off the sidewalks and if they do they block the corners so it makes it almost impossible to cross the street. Hopefully this will be the last snow fall of the season. Technically it is still winter time I suppose.

I have finally started meeting with my job coach again as of this past Thursday. It has been a while since i lost saw her but it’s understandable with the state of things as they are at the current moment. It is really tough to think of searching for jobs right now due to the fact that even the sighted people are having trouble finding jobs. I don’t say that to be negative, it’s just the truth. We did find a couple of possible jobs though but i don’t wish to say what yet until I know what I’m doing. We have a few questions that we need to ask regarding one of them and i don’t know how it’s going to end. I am keeping an open mind and a positive outlook on things though. We are meeting next Wednesday again so hopefully I will have some answers then.
I’m a bit upset however because at the end of this month I’m being transfered to someone new. I feel that I’m getting passed around from one person to another and it makes it tough because it’s like having to start all over again. I’m thinking the positive from this is that maybe the new person will know better how to work with a blind person as my current job coach has admitted to me that she’s never worked with a sight impaired person before. Personally for never having worked with someone who is blind she has done a really grate job of helping me with the search for work. No, that’s not me being sarcastic either, I mean that from the bottom of my gothic vampyric heart.

I’ve been thinking of school again, I truly want to do this thing. If only I could somehow get my remaining balance paid off so that they would send my transcripts to my college of choice…I know some of you may be thinking well you are getting a stimulus check, you could use that. Believe me, I have seriously thought of doing just that but I have also considered paying off old credit card debt as well. If only I hadn’t allowed my ex to help max out my cards I wouldn’t be in this position. The promises of “I’ll pay you back” were just empty words. I shouldn’t have allowed it and I do take responsibility for my part in this as well. Life would be much easier if I had just said no. Ah well, I can’t dwell on the past, i just need to figure out how to move forward from here to achieve my goals. There are a couple of things I’d like to go to college for, social work and Ais (american indigenous studies) like i had first planned but then there’s foreign language interpreting. I took three years of Spanish in high school so I’d like to continue that. I’d pretty much be starting over as i haven’t used it in ages but I’m definitely up for the challenge and the other plus to that is I have someone to speak with so I wouldn’t get rusty with it again. I’ll have to give this some serious thought.

Well, I don’t have anything else at the present so I’ll close out for now. I hope you all have a wonderful day filled with love, joy, peace and positivity.


Just Another Day

Greetings readers.

I hope this entry finds you all doing well. I’m tired but I’m still awake though I am mentally exhausted. I have to wonder if I’m taking on way too much. I love to help my friends when they are going through things but with the lack of sleep and my own physical stuff going on I just don’t know. Will I stop? Nope, probably not. Why did that last line make me think of a Vanilla Ice song? Ice Ice Baby to be exact. “Will it ever stop? Yo! I don’t know. Turn off the lights, and I’ll glow
To the extreme, I rock a mic like a vandal
Light up a stage and wax a chump like a candle…” and so on. Yes, I do know all of the lyrics to this song. Now that’s a song I haven’t heard in ages. In spite of feeling so tired I’m doing alright though I think some self-care is in order. I’m always telling others to practice that and so now maybe I should take my own advice.

So something exciting…I’m referring to the Perseverance having landed on Mars! I’m going to leave this link here, it’s not very loud but if you listen with headphones you may be able to hear it. It’s sounds from the planet. I just wish I could see the video of the landing and what things look like up there.

Emmy was trolling…erm…wait…I mean scrolling through Facebook earlier today and she read this to me and I found it amusing.

“On the first day, God created the dog and said, sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this I will give you a life span of twenty years.
The dog said, “That’s a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I’ll give you back the other ten?”
And God said that it was good.
On the second day, God created the monkey and said, “Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I’ll give you a twenty-year life span.”
The monkey said, “Monkey tricks for twenty years? That’s a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the dog did?”
And God again said that it was good.
On the third day, God created the cow and said, “You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer’s family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.”
The cow said, “That’s kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. How about twenty and I’ll give back the other forty?”
And God agreed it was good.
On the fourth day, God created humans and said, “Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I’ll give you twenty years.”
But the human said, “Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?”
“Okay,” said God, “You asked for it.”
So that is why for our first twenty years, we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years, we slave in the sun to support our family. For the next ten years, we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren. And for the last ten years, we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.
Life has now been explained to you.
There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I’m doing it as a public service. If you are looking for me I will be on the front porch….”

So, I’m to understand that you can use wordpress as a website but I don’t know how to make this happen. I’m hoping to find someone that can teach me the ways of WordPress. I am wanting to turn into a website where I can publish poetry, music, and so much more. I have been wanting a website for so many years now and have never had the chance to learn how to set one up as I don’t know anyone who can teach it.

There’s now a spam blocker here now so comments can be left once again and I’ll see them, that is if you wish to leave them. This is in no way me begging for comments so please don’t feel obligated to do so. I just thought I’d let you all know just in case you wanted to, the option is there.

Well, I suppose this is all for now. Be safe everyone and take care of yourselves and each other.


Love is Love!

LISTENING TO: Disturbed – Who Taught You How to Hate
Mood: Angry

DISCLAIMER! I’m warning you all now; this entry isn’t going to be a nice one. You are going to see a side of me that you may have never seen before. I won’t apologize for this, I’m angry and I intend to let it be known.
I will say to those who are Christian and who are open minded I do apologize to you; I’m not knocking your faith. I have never had an issue with Christianity as a whole, just its judgmental sheople.
The nature of this entry is of the defending the LGBTQ community kind, I had a boss who is gay and he is as Christian as they come. I miss him, he was definitely cool people. If you’re all continuing to read, you have been warned.

This starts what my rant is about…
“I am truly disgusted in what this World has come to. I’m sorry lord that we allow same-sex marriage is in your churches. I’m sorry people disgracing your name is just an every day thing for most people. I’m sorry that most of society thinks things like abortion are okay. I’m sorry that our children are being taught they evolved from a fish in school. I’m sorry that people who are transgender are being told that it is perfectly normal. I’m sorry that most Christians are afraid to tell the truth, because they are worried of what people might think of them.” However, this will all change upon your return.”
End reading…

I am truly disgusted in your judgmental, fake ass Christian, closed minded, idiotic, thoughts on what you see as “unnatural” way of thinking. No, you didn’t use the word unnatural but you may as well have! First of all, you aren’t a true Christian because if you were you’d know that judging others is wrong, it says so in the bible which yes, even though I’m pagan I have read from cover to cover so I do know what it says. Personally I think the true Christians are the ones who live like they should and follow the no judgment rule. They have good hearts and help others. They spread the word of God without trying to force their thoughts and beliefs down your throat. To me, that’s what a good Christian is. I do have friends who are Christian and they are some of the most awesome people that I know. Why is it that the Christians who put so much stock in their “good book” don’t follow what it says? Second, why do you think that two people of the same sex who love each other are wrong for getting married in churches? Would you accept it any better if they got married outside of a church? No, more than likely you wouldn’t. What is so wrong with two people of the same sex loving each other? They can no more help falling in love than a straight couple; you are just like the many sheople who learn from a young age that it’s wrong so you preach that it is. How about learning to think for yourself instead of going by what your parents and everyone who has filled your head with crap has drilled into that pea sized brain of yours. Love is love no matter what anyone has told you, you can love the same sex or not it’s your choice. No one’s trying to get you to fall for a partner of your same gender and you can’t’ catch it by having a friendship with someone who is LGBTQ. It isn’t’ your call to make about who loves who. Third, yes it is perfectly okay to be transgender! It’s not like a transgender person wakes up in the morning and says to their self, self?” I think I’ll be a girl today or I think I’ll be a man today. It doesn’t work like that. They can’t help that they were born in the wrong body. That’s not something a cisgender person would or even could understand. I do know however that my fiancé is transgender and I watch what she goes through everyday, it’s a struggle for her especially when her dysphoria kicks in. Sheople like you however wouldn’t understand this because you are too closed minded to learn about what transgender persons have to deal with. How would you feel if the roles were reversed? If gays, lesbians, bisexuals, pansexuals (which I am one BTW and proud of it), transgender, queer or questioning were the majority and not the minority and we said it’s not okay to be straight and straight people loving each other is wrong and it’s disgusting, how would you feel? You’d probably be as angry and hurt as our community is. But you know what? We will prevail, we are strong and no matter what you can’t tear us down. We are united and together we stand as one because love is love! No one and I do mean no one can change that for us. We proudly let our freak flags fly, we let our pride flags fly, we proudly fly our trans-gender flags high and we will not be beaten! You have your beliefs and I have mine, if God truly wants his “children” to be happy and I have no doubts that he does then he’d approve of whomever we choose to love, he’d be fine with transgender people doing what they need to do to make themselves feel right. He wouldn’t’ give up on them and say well I guess that person’s going to hell. I’d like to think that he loves us the way we are and for who we are. If not, that’s not a God I’d like to serve anyway. Oh and as for your thoughts that Christians are afraid to tell the truth because of what people might think of them? How do you know that the way they feel aren’t how they actually feel? Are you inside their heads? No! You know what they say about assuming right? If not, go look it up. I’m not even going to go into the other things in that statement above which sparked this entry. I have been attempting really hard to respect the Christian god by not taking his name in vain, that’s out of respect for my friends who are of the Christian faith.
Rant over.

I am hungry so I need to go and find breakfast but I hope you all have a grate rest of your day. May it be filled with love, joy, peace and positivity. If you did make it through this entry I thank you for reading and not judging. As I have stated, I have absolutely nothing against Christianity and everyone has their beliefs but I was so angered by that person’s statement. I do respect her for her faith but truly we can’t help who we are.
Alright, peace out.


The Rainbow Kitty Says Hello

Greetings to all.

I hope this entry finds you well. I’m doing alright, I can’t believe I’m awake at this ungodly hour but here I am. I did sleep for a bit so maybe that’s why I’m up. I just wish I could get my sleeping schedule back to normal but I cant’ seem to do so. Oy well, since I’m here I might as well write.

So just a quick note here, for those who are using discord and needing to learn things about how to navigate it using a screen reader here’s a link that may help you.

Changeling’s Guide to Discord for Screen Reader Users

I have been asked by many people about why I keep posting about saving the dolphins in Taiji Japan or why I care about what color the cove is on a daily basis. I have found a link that will answer your questions if interested. If after reading you still have questions, please don’t hesitate to ask me. I love raising awareness for this horrific act that goes on there. I will also say be aware of what you will read, it’s not pretty.

Taiji Facts/Frequently Asked Questions

For a bit of amusement I stole this from Facebook and thought, why not? So, here goes…

* How old are you backwards: 64.
* Tattoos: None.
* Ever hit a deer: No, but I was in a car with someone who did.
* Rode in an ambulance: Yup sure have.
* Iced skate: Yes but not for many years.
* Rode a motorcycle: Yep.
* Stayed in hospital: Unfortunately.
* Last cell phone call: Flint.
* Last text from: Bianca.
* Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi.
* Favorite pie: Pumpkin or lemon meringue.
* Favorite season: Spring and autumn.
* Broken Bones: I have had no broken bones but I’ve had a fractured ankle, it was fractured in three places.
* Received a ticket: Nope.
* Favorite color: In my case it would be colors, purple, red, blue and black.
* Sunrise or Sunset: Definitely sunset though I do like the sunrise as well.
* Ocean or Mountains: The Ocean.
* Dog or Cat: I love all animals.
* Morning or evening: I like both for different reasons.
* Who will play: I don’t know though it’s irrelevant because this isn’t FB but my journal. However if you wanted to leave your answers in a comment, I wouldn’t be opposed to that.

Valentine’s Day was sort of a bust. I felt really bad because pretty much right after dinner I fell asleep. I think Emmy felt a bit cheated because she wanted to hang out and do things like watch movies but instead I went horizontal and that was all I wrote apparently. To be fair I hadn’t slept well that night and hadn’t gotten much rest so I was a bit tired. She said she wasn’t mad at me but I still felt like a heel for doing that to her. Dinner was grate though. We had Lasagna, Caesar salad and garlic Texas toast. We were silly and drank milk out of wine goblets because we didn’t’ have any wine. For dessert which neither one of us ate because we were full, there were sugar cookies decorated for the day and/or lemon bars, some plain and some with chocolate on them. They came out with a new ice cream which I thought would have been perfect for the dessert but I didn’t have any and I couldn’t have gotten it had I wanted too. It is only at Krogers which we do not have here in MN, such a shame in my opinion. It is called strawberry champagne and the description is as follows: a strawberry ice cream base with a glittering champagne ribbon and rosé fizzing candy. Like I said it would have been perfect for the holiday and it sounds really yummy too.

I went to the food co op today. I love going to that place because it has such a feel good vibe to it. I got a few groceries there for my health food pantry which I haven’t yet created but plan to do so soon. I looked at whey protein for my smoothies and they wanted way too much for it, I’m not sure if I can find it cheaper online but I plan to have a look to see if I can find it. I also got two packages of Kind bars which I absolutely love, I haven’t tried these two particular flavors yet though but they sounded really good. I have to be careful of which ones of those I get though because some of them include coconut which I cannot eat, so reading labels is a definite thing. Kashi cereals are my friends as well, they are super good for you from what I understand so I got two flavors to try to see if I like them. I’m sure I will, one is called Strawberry Fields and the other is called Chocolate Cocoa. You just can’t go wrong with strawberries or chocolate.

The Lent season begins Wednesday Feb 17 and I don’t usually take part in that anymore but this year I have decided too. So this year I’m giving up all forms of soda, chips and cookies or anything that can be considered junk food actually. The only exception for me is dark chocolate as that does have some health benefits. Dropping soda is something I have wanted to do for a while now and this will give me the push to do so. I know that some may probably scoff at me but this is what I need to do for myself, my friends can either support me or not but I’m doing this either way. The trick is going to be staying strong enough when the teasing does come and I know it will, I know I can do this. I have the will and I know that I can conquer. I know that I’ll feel much better for doing so in the end.

Alright, I think I’m finished with this entry finally. I’ll write again soon or at least I’ll try.

You all take care of yourselves and each other. I hope that today is filled with love, joy, peace and positivity for all of you. No matter what life throws your way, try to hold your head high and let your beautiful lights shine in a world that needs your brightness, don’t let anyone dim or snuff out your light.


Lá Vailintín sona duit, Happy Valentine’s Day!

LISTENING TO: The clock chiming noon
CURRENT MOOD: Sleepy but content

<3<3<3 Happy Valentine’s Day! <3<3<3, or Lá Vailintín sona duit!

Good Sunday to you all!

I hope this entry finds you all doing well. As for me, I’m alright, can’t complain. I’ve been up half the night so I’m quite tired currently but it’s ok. Falling asleep at about…never mind, I have forgotten what time I fell asleep but I know that it was in the evening way before I meant to and getting up at like 2:15 AM will do that to a person. I fully intend to go and take a nap as soon as I’m finished writing this.
I just wanted to come out here and say I hope you all have a fun day filled with lots of love, no matter if you have a significant other or not, you are all still loved and cherished by someone. If you celebrate I hope your day is special, if you don’t then I hope you have a wonderful Sunday. I know this holiday isn’t for everyone and I whole heartedly agree that we don’t need just one day to show that special someone that we love them, you should do that everyday. You have to admit though, the chocolates are a bonus. : P. Okay, not for all because there are those who don’t like chocolate and I’m so sorry you don’t, chocolate is life and fixes almost everything. Seriously though, have an awesome day no matter what you are doing.

So I wrote these “Roses are red” things on twitter and I thought I’d post them here as well as one day I will look back on this journal and ask myself, self” What on earth were you thinking when you came up with these? They are a bit cheesy I admit but here they are all the same. I do mean every word of them; they have come from my little gothic heart. The vampire in me is hissing at me right now. LOL!

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Hoping your day is filled with love that is true.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Just wanted you to know, I’m here for all of you.

And the last one…

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Too all of my friends, I love and cherish all of you.

Alright, enough of the sappy…

For those who know, Ozzy had to go to the vet. I took him and the vet said that for his age, he’s alright. They clipped his claws so that was taken care of and he can jump and walk with no pain in his poor little paws. The vet did say that he’s old and there really isn’t anything they can do for him at this time. The good thing is, I didn’t have to make the decision to let him go over the rainbow bridge and for that I’m grateful. I wasn’t ready; will I ever be ready though? I know I could if he were suffering but seeing how he isn’t its all good. The only thing is, he has a sinus issue now and there isn’t a cure for that so we just have to watch him and make sure that he’s okay. I’m going to get him some Glucosamine for his joints, I just put that in some human chicken flavored baby food and he’s golden. That cat loves his chicken and I love him.

Well I’m off to hopefully take a much needed nap before waking up and cooking dinner tonight for Emmy. I think I’m making lasagna, Caesar salad and garlic toast. For dessert? Valentine’s Day cookies or lemon bars, she gets to choose. I just wish I had a bottle of some good wine to have with it, strawberries and champagne or something like that. Ah well better planning for next year. :).

I hope you all have a lovely rest of your day filled with love, joy, peace and positivity.
Take care of yourselves and one another.


Good Lord it’s February!

Good morning readers.

LISTENING TO: Bullet Boys – Livin’ on a Prayer

I hope this entry finds you well, I’m well enough with no complaints. I’m sitting here listening to hair metal which for those of you who know me knows that it’s my favorite genre of music. The album is called 101 Power Ballads. I do not currently own this album but I must. I’m playing it on Amazon music, shameless plug!

Well, today we say goodbye to January and greet February. I find myself asking where has the last month gone? Time just keeps flying by and at times it makes me feel a little sad. Why? I’m not to sure; I just know that it does. Maybe it’s the whole “the older you get the faster time flies” thing. By today’s standards I’m not really that old though I keep telling myself that I am. When will I ever learn to stop judging myself? Ah, the questions of life that I cannot answer. I truly am in a good mood, I promise.

Things seem to be looking up when it comes to the housing stuff. We had to get legal aide involved and the city building inspector as well. Finally they have taken care of some of the maintenance issues. We now have a lock on our back door though the dude put it on upside down and he took the lock from the upstairs back door. The second bedroom now has a new door but that also came from upstairs. The refrigerator has new door strips that hold the food in that…yup you guessed it…came from upstairs as well. This totally annoys me because now the upstairs place will get new things and we are stuck with the old. Some of you may say just be glad it got taken care of and yes, I am happy but why couldn’t we have gotten the new stuff as promised? They put in all new things upstairs and we get stuck with used. I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with having used things, I shop at thrift stores for goodness sake and am proud to announce it but for once why can’t people keep their promises? Anyway, off that rant, things are getting repaired and I suppose in the grand scheme of things that’s all that really matters. After our lease is up, we are considering a move, I have called this place called The Sibley Park Apartments but that’s a no right from the start because they don’t’ allow pets and I’m not giving up my cats. The hunt will continue, we’d like to get into a house, an honest to goodness house. Emmy’s mother has suggested that we leave Mankato and head for Rochester, I think we are considering it because of Emmy’s Trans care. We will see though.

On the job front I have found nothing as of yet, I didn’t really expect to with covid-19 still a thing. I haven’t given up looking though at times I want to. I’m not one to throw in the towel so easily. If I could find something from home, that would be perfect. I suppose me and everyone else searching for work is thinking the same way. I still need to do my brush up on Microsoft Xcel that would definitely help with finding work. Almost everywhere I have looked needs you to be proficient with Microsoft office and I am not, I’d like to be though.

My cat Ozzy turned eighteen years old On January eighteenth this year. For his age he’s not doing too badly, he’s moving a bit slower than he used to and his fur’s matted because I don’t think he’s grooming like he should. I will be taking him to the vet this month to get that resolved and I’m going to put him back on Glucosamine for his joints. Hopefully he will feel much better afterwards. I’m also going to invest in a heated cat bed for him because he gets cold easily and once he’s been shaved, because I’m certain that’s what the vet is going to suggest I have done he will need a place to keep warm. My poor old man. He’s still eating and drinking so that’s a good thing, I’m so afraid that he’s going to leave us soon and I’m definitely not looking forward to it, but no one looks to the time when they will end up losing a member of their family do they? I’m just going to enjoy the time I have left with him. I try not to think about it and still love and care for him like normal. I do love my little man, my little old man.

I signed up for a year of distrokid! As soon as I can I’ll get my songs uploaded and I will be able to be heard on all of the music platforms! I’m kind of excited and scared both about this. I’m hoping all goes well with it, my artist name is Winter Rose, I’ll update you all when I have done.

Well I suppose that’s all for now. I’ll try and write again soon. I truly do want to keep up with this thing this year so I will try hard to do this thing. I can’t promise but I’ll definitely make a grate effort.

You all take care of yourselves and each other.
I hope you all have an amazing day filled with love, joy, peace and positivity. Believe in yourself, be kind to yourself, be good to yourself, tell yourself that you are somebody and that no one can bring you down. To me you matter and you are good enough, you are loved, you are cared for, you are beautiful and you are wonderful. My wishes for you are peace, happiness, love, joy, a happy home and hearth and a lifetime of friendships that are true and never end. Have a grate day all and always let your bright lights shine, don’t’ let anyone darken them.


Bye Bye 2020!

Happy New Years eve!

Ok so it’s already 2021 for some of you, happy new year to those already in 2021!

Just wanted to write this to give a huge goodbye and good riddance to 2020, I’m so done and over it and am ready for it to go away. May 2021 be your year, may you be blessed and may the new year bring lots of good things to all.

We didn’t do much for the end of the year for a celebration. We were supposed to have a friend over but he got sick and so we just ordered McDonalds and hung out on Tt.

I don’t really have a year end review as not much happened this year what with lock down and the coronavirus. I was unlucky enough to have it back in May and let me tell you it wasn’t fun at all. Thank goodness I was able to recover from it at home, for that I’m thankful. I think that was the biggest thing that happened this year. I still don’t have my full sense of smell and taste back yet but they’re returning slowly.

Anyway, I’m sorry this is so short but I’m tired and don’t have a lot of energy right now, not even for writing which is sad.

Have a good night everyone and no matter what you may be doing to celebrate I hope you are being safe.
Have fun! And I’ll write again next year.

Take care of yourselves and each other.

Winter the vampiress

20 Slang Terms From the 1990s

Good afternoon readers.

I hope this post finds you all well, so far we’re dodging the coronavirus which is a good thing. Mentally we struggle but we’re trying to take things one day at a time. We did get a report today though that there’s one case in our town now, so we are a bit worried about that. I’m not naive enough to think it never would have hit Mankato so don’t think, “oh she’s naive” because I’m not. I knew that it was just a matter of time, we’ve been in a self-imposed quarantine since last Tuesday with the acception of going to our brother’s house for dinner which is two houses away and then back home again and so far we both are still healthy. I pray that we stay that way. Anyway, enough about that for now.

I was on facebook earlier, not sure why as most of what I see is politics and people fighting about who said and did what but I thought maybe I’d find a bit of positive news. I did, one of my FB friends just had a nephew born today so congratulations to her on becoming an aunt again. Babies are such blessings in dark times. While looking to see if there was anymore good news I came across a post from another FB friend and just had to post it here. As i was reading I laughed so hard I cried. Let’s see how many of you remember these phrases and words.
By the way, I still wear skechers, they’re comfortable. Don’t judge me. :p.

20 Slang Terms From the 1990s No One Uses Anymore


There’s one surefire way to find out if somebody came of age in the 90s. Randomly shout out “Schwing!” If they stare at you like you’re having a mental collapse, they’re probably one of those darned Millennials. But if they laugh or cringe, in some way acknowledging the reference, you’ve identified a bona fide 90s kid. (“Schwing,” by the way, is 90s slang for excitement, first coined by Mike Myers in his “Wayne’s World” Saturday Night Live sketch and movie spin-offs.).
Once somebody has opened the 90s slang floodgates, those memories can come rushing back and you start using words and phrases that haven’t entered your brain since you last bought Pearl Jam records. Don’t resist that urge. Slip on some flannel and Skechers, slap on that slap bracelet, and let’s revisit the best of 90s slang.

1. All that and a bag of chips
A compliment of sorts. The person or thing being described is everything one could possibly hope for, and they come with a side dish. Because who doesn’t want a snack for later?
Example: “She’s not just cool. She’s all that and a bag of chips.”

2. Kick him to the curb
When it’s not enough just to break up with somebody. You need to let them know, in the strongest possible terms, why you want them out of your life.
Example: “He did what? Oh girl, you’ve got to kick him to the curb.”

3. Home skillet
Your best bud and closest confidant. The guy or girl you count on and trust above all others. But not, ironically, the person most likely to make you dinner on a skillet.
Example: “Home skillet! It’s about time you got here.

4. Talk to the hand
Whatever the other person is trying to tell you has been rejected. You are no longer interested in conversing with them. If they want to continue anyway, well, they are welcome to direct their grievances towards your open palm.
Example: “Can I please explain why you’re wrong about Tonya Harding?” “Talk to the hand!”

5. As if!
A sarcastic retort to a preposterous suggestion. “As if” imagines a ridiculous alternate reality in which the subject being discussed could actually happen. We can thank Clueless for this memorable 90s slang term.
Example: “She thinks we’re going to get married and have a bunch of kids together. As if!”

6. Booyah!
When you’re feeling so much exuberance but no real word in the English language seems sufficient enough to capture the full scale of your emotions.
Example: “I’m finally moving out of my parent’s basement. Booyah!”

7. Scrub
A guy with no money, no job, no prospects, and no class. Pretty much the lowest of the low. Also, they won’t be getting any love from the R&B girl group TLC. Sorry, fellas.
Example: “I appreciate the offer for a date, but I have a strict no scrubs policy.”

8. Not!
It’s the 90s slang version of “psych.” You think somebody is telling you the truth or agreeing with you, and then blammo, they hit you with the ol’ reversal!
Example: “I think Spin Doctors are the best band of all time…NOT!”

9. Fart-Knocker
A more confusing way to insult somebody. Just say it with a Beavis and Butthead voice and leave it at that.
Example: “I’m not going anywhere with that fart-knocker.”

10. Monet
Someone or something seems attractive from a distance, but when you get up close for a better look, it’s a hot mess. Not unlike the paintings of French impressionist Claude Monet.
Example: “You actually think he’s hot? You better look again, he’s a total Monet.”

11. Aiight
It’s just the words “all right,” but, you know, said by a cool kid.
Example: “Nah, I’m cool. I know it looks like I slept in a dumpster, but I’m aiight.”

12. Crunk
A celebration that’s gotten so wild and crazy, Snoop Dogg himself might very well show up.
Example: “Don’t come till at least midnight. That’s when the party really gets crunk.”

13. Whatever
When you’re just done with somebody and you want out of the conversation immediately. “Whatever” doesn’t declare a winner or loser, just that you don’t care anymore.
Example: “Okay, okay, I get it, you think you’ve got the best soul patch on the eastern seaboard. Whatever!”

14. Fly
If it’s fly, it must be dope. Or as your grandfather might say, “The bee’s knees.” The dancers on In Living Color weren’t called Fly Girls because they could levitate. They were just that awesome.
Example: “Your Vanilla Ice dance moves are totally fly!”

15. Hella
When your sentence needs a little extra emphasis, this piece of 90s lingo will do the trick. It’s an adjective that automatically adds three exclamation points.
Example: “I just watched the O.J. Simpson verdict, and I am hella surprised!”

16. Getting jiggy.
This phrase comes from a popular meme at the time. Sorry, no, just kidding. We mean music video. Remember those? Will Smith’s “Gettin’ Jiggy With It” taught the world that the only way to dance was like you’d just downed two pots of coffee.
Example: “It’s been a tough week at work. I need to get jiggy with it.”

17. Sup
A greeting. When you mean to say “wassup” (i.e. “what’s up with you?”) but that just seems like too much mouth exercise.
Example: “Sup?”
“Nuthin’. Sup with you?”
“Nuthin, just playing Sega.”

18. bugging out.
Weirdly, it’s not (usually) meant as an insult. If somebody is bugging, they’re behaving in unfamiliar ways that concern you. You want them to stop, or at least explain why they’re acting so darn crazy.
Example: “You okay? Why are you bugging out?”

19. Open up a can of…
Somebody got on your wrong side and they’re going to regret it. This 90s slang term doesn’t necessarily mean a physical scuffle is on the horizon. That can of butt-kicking might just translate as a verbal lashing.
Example: “He broke my GameBoy, so I’m about to open up a can on him.”

20. You go, girl!
It sounds like you’re throwing somebody out of your house, but it’s really a celebratory cheer. It’s the hip person’s way to say, “I’m so proud of you!!”
Example: “You got that job promotion at Blockbuster? You go, girl!”

I’ll have you know, I still use some of those. LOL! Actually I didn’t wear Skechers in the 90s as my mother found them to be way too expensive and anything I wanted I had to save up for. I never was able to afford them. I wear the hell out of Skechers now though, as I said they’re extremely comfortable, those and Airwalks.

Alright, my dinner’s calling my name so I’m off to consume it before it gets cold. Party Pizza FTW!

Please please please you guys be safe and take care of yourselves. Just know I’m thinking of you all, hugs all around.
Remember to practice self-care especially in these times.

Love From the white tigress,
Winter Skye Fox

Good Times, Bad Times

10:34 PM 2/28/2020

Good evening readers of this thing I call a journal.

I hope this entry finds you all well, as for me things are going pretty ok. I’m currently sitting here on teamtalk listening to the brand new FFDP (Five Finger Death Punch) album and so far I’m loving it. They have become my new favorite band ever since their last album came out. I’ve always liked them since I first heard them but for some reason unknown to me they gained favorite status and I’m good with that. No, I haven’t forgotten about Disturbed who still rank very very high up there for me but FFDP are my new go to band when I’m angry. I suggest you check them out if you are into metal, they won’t disappoint. For anyone interested the new album is called F8. I’m pretty sure that stands for Fate. LOL!

To get one thing out of the way, remember in my first entry of this year I promised that by the end of the year I’d have my name that I was going to stick with? I have chosen! Yay! The new name I’ve decided to go with is: Winter Skye Fox. I have thought long and hard about what I wanted in a name and did some meditating over it and it was down to three names. Winter, Summer and Oaklynn. I decided that I wanted a nature themed name and at first I was going to go with Summer since that was the season I was born in but came to the conclusion that it was too common and a bit cliche, it was then down to two. I really liked Oaklynn but since that is one of the names I use in a game I play I didn’t wish for that so then I chose Winter. Winter is totally opposite of Summer and I’m not cold like the name suggests but I find it very pretty. I spoke with a few people including my therapist and she told me that ultimately it was my decision so I thought on it for a while. My fox says the name is pretty as well but before deciding I slept on it and finally I said to myself, Self? You are Winter but now you need a middle name to go with it. Again I thought long and hard about this as well and came up with Skye. Winter Skye, I like how they go together. I’m spelling it S K Y E instead of the traditional way. Fox? This shall become my last name as soon as The fox and I are married. She wishes to change her name to Elsa Farah Fox and so once this happens and we are married my last name will change to that. From now on when I’m writing about my fox I will refer to her as Elsa.
So there you have it, my name when I can finally legally change it will be Winter Skye. Please please forgive me for all of the confusion and all of the changes.

A cool thing has happened or at least it could be very cool.
I went for a job interview on the 11 of February and both the interviewer and my job coach said that I did very well. They seemed very interested and willing to help with anything I needed to make my job easier. To me this sounds pretty positive but I’m not getting my hopes up too high but at the same time I remain optimistic. Here’s to hoping i hear something soon, it will be good to get back to work again.

The more i learn about where i live the more it makes me wish to get out sooner than later.
The maintenance issues are slowly starting to get taken care of however I’ve learned some sort of scary stuff. I can’t remember but I thought I may have written about how our landlady doesn’t do background checks on her tenants before they are allowed to move in here. Well, I’ve learned that we had neighbors living above us that were cooking and selling meth out of there apartment and that another one of the neighbors that was living in the same building went totally bonkers and killed his dog. Since we’ve moved here about seven months ago the upstairs apartment has had three different people living up there. I don’t know about you but I don’t wish to live anywhere that meth is being cooked or distributed and Elsa certainly doesn’t need to be around that stuff. She’s been doing very well with her sobriety and we’d both like to keep it that way. We want to do this legally though if we are going to do this. Honestly though I’m worried and kind of frightened. I hate feeling like that and I shouldn’t have to in my own home. I know things like this can happen anywhere but at least in a secure building I’d feel so much safer. Elsa totally agree with me on this, I’m so tired of moving but if it’s what we need to do then we just need to do it.
They are coming next Thursday to put in all new carpet in the living room and the hallway and that will be a good thing. It’s about time, we don’t have to worry about the tack strips after that either.

8:33 PM 2/29/2020

Happy Feb 29, leap year day!

I’m sitting here watching the my baby first channel, why you may be asking? Because I can, LOL! There isn’t crap on TV right now and so this is what i chose. Don’t judge me. LOL!

On a more serious note, the dolphin hunts in Taiji Japan are finally at an end till September. I’m so glad for this as they will be able to swim free for a while. I don’t understand why the hunters do what they do. Dolphin meat is filled with mercury and other things a human should not be consuming and yet the hunters slaughter them for food and they don’t alert their people as to what they are actually eating. They mix it in sushi sometimes and it’s just not good. I have done my research on this and that’s what I read. They shouldn’t be offering up dolphins for food and try and pass them off as other fish. The toxins that are in the meat can be deadly for people and it disgusts me that they don’t know what they are eating.
Don’t get me started on capturing them for captivity, the conditions in which they are forced to live in are awful! These hunters make a ton of money when they capture a dolphin for performances. Depriving them of food if they don’t do what’s expected of them is wrong, not to mention the abuse they suffer at the teeth of one another. It’s the same for Killer Whales. The tanks where they reside are no where big enough for the dolphins to swim the way they normally would in the wild. There have bene reports of dolphins for a lack of a better phrase “trying to commit suicide” because they can’t play and they don’t stay with their own pods like they would in the oceans. Anywayu, I went off on a bit of a tangent but I feel so strongly about this issue. I’m just glad it’s over for a while.

I have started drinking lemon water and it seems to be doing my body good. I have more energy now and I just seem to feel a lot better than I have been lately. Yay for feeling better and having more energy! If you like lemon you should really try lemon water, it’s awesome!

Ah well, since I can’t remember what else I was going to write about I’ll end here for now. I’ll write again soon…I hope. :P.

Until next time, take care of yourselves and each other.
Self-care is a wonderful thing.