Jobs and Homes: Not Yet

Time: 6:34 AM.
Mood: Tired.
Music: The Scorpions, Send Me an Angel.
Location: The Fox Den.

Good morning, good afternoon, or good evening according to the part of the world you are in.

Sleep illudes me so here I am, updating you all on my not so exciting life. I’m smiling as I write this. I was trying to catch a few more zees but that isn’t happening and I’m not sure why. Wait, yes, I do. Luna won’t allow me peace. Oh, and happy belated birthday to Luna, she’s nine years old this year. Seems like it was so long ago that I brought her home. I actually thought she was a year older than she is, I had to think about her age when her birthday came. I feel so bad about that, Poor kitty. Bad cat slave. Anyway, she got lots of extra treats and much love. It’s my belief that she had a good day.

It’s currently 37 degrees here with a wind chill of 32, the positive to that though is that it’s supposed to get into the fifties and the birds are singing so therefore I am happy. I haven’t made my coffee yet…Mmmmm, coffee. I think I’ll take a quick break to make some. Yes, I shall do this thing.
Okay, I have my coffee so hopefully I will be able to function much better and stop feeling so silly from tiredness. For Christmas Kaylie got me a Keurig Duo and I absolutely adore it! I now have the option to make either a one serving k-cup or an entire twelve cup pot. BEST XMAS PRESENT EVER!!! Speaking of coffee, Kaylie and I have come up with a name for coffee and hot chocolate mixed. I know it sounds weird but it’s tasty. We call it, are you ready? Chofflee. Word’s telling me it’s spelled wrong, but it isn’t, that’s how we spell it. CHOFFLEE. That’s not what I made though, I’m drinking hazel nut coffee, I love this flavor, it’s om nom nom.

Well let’s see, what’s happening in my world presently?

• The job hunt continues.
1. Land to Air.
This past Tuesday my job coach came over and we filled out an application for Land to Air. They said that once things speed up again, they’ll consider me and give me a call. They figure things will get busier in the late spring or summer months.
2. The Creative Company.
This job entails gathering books to pack in boxes to get shipped out to schools and families who place orders for them, at least that’s how I understand it. I guess they are starting to bring more people on so now I’m just waiting to see if there’s something for me to do there.
3. Taylor Corp.
My job coach tells me there are lots of things that they’re looking for but she’s trying to see what might be a good fit for me. We’re not sure about this one yet.
4. V Tech.
This is the newest one she spoke to me about. I think she said it’s called V Tech at any rate. Again, this would be more packing of boxes and putting parts in bags in preparation for shipping out.
Those are the current four we are looking into. I will take the first available, but my first choice would be Land to Air. A lot of companies are seeking full time workers and I’m not willing to quit my job at the hotel to do full time because I love my job there. Does this make me a horrible person? I don’t believe it does, there’s nothing wrong with loving your work. I’m not totally closed off to the possibility though if I had to I would. The one thing I simply refuse to do is give up, I will not quit searching for that second job.

• Possible New Homes
• There is a bit of news here, the housing guy came to do more inspections of this place we are living in now. He has concluded that everything has bene fixed properly. I explained to him that our lock is still messed up and he looked at it. He said Well, it locks so therefore it’s fixed. Those weren’t his exact words; I’m having to paraphrase because I don’t remember what he actually said as I’m still to upset over it to recall them. He claims the fan in the bathroom works now but it still doesn’t. I pointed out the cracking and moving kitchen floor and all he said was, I’ll ask them if they have any plans to fix it. Again, paraphrasing is a thing. According to him though everything’s as it should be now except for the floor. It’s so frustrating, I don’t know what else to do so moving will definitely be a thing. I mean it always was but now I have absolutely no more doubts in my mind this needs to happen.
Now having given you all that update I’ve found a possible home. There are townhomes not too far from where we are now that I’m looking into. I need to do a bit more research, but they aren’t that old, only a few years Vampy said. (Vampy equals Flint for those who didn’t know). Anyhow they sound pretty nice, but I’ve got to make some calls and ask some questions before I make a final decision and we want to view them before deciding as well.
My other option is back to the building where we lived before, the only thing about that place is I’m not sure I wish to deal with all the paranormal activity there since they’ve remodeled. I’m don’t know how many of my readers believe in the paranormal, but I’m told that even new people who have been moving in there have said they’ve been experiencing things. Kaylie’s mother’s apartment is haunted, she has told us of things happening there. I know how to deal with things, but I don’t know that I want to. I’m filling out an application for that place anyway and will move there as a last resort. Anything would be better than staying here where we are now. Good thing Kaylie also knows how to deal with the spirit world, she can help me.

Man, I’ve run out of steam now and want to sleep again but I cannot. I have to get ready for work this morning. It’s currently 9:02 AM and I work at 10:30.

Writing this entry has taken forever but I took a rest to eat my breakfast, leftover pizza FTW! (For the win).

Alright, I’d better be off now. I’ll write again when I don’t feel so scatter brained, a nap may be in order once I get home from work.

Take care everyone and I’ll update again soon.
Much love and positivity to you all.

This Place is Not a Home

Good morning readers, I hope this entry finds you well.

I was reading back through this thing and realized that I hadn’t updated since like March of 2021, I can’t remember the date it said now but having not written in a year? My goodness! That’s not like me at all. Well, I must remedy this, writing must become a thing again as it’s a wonderful way to get out all my thoughts and feelings.

So much has happened in a year such as Emmy changing her name to Kaylie Lynn most recently, (personally I love the name), the passing of my step-mother Georgia a few weeks ago, Kaylie getting punched in the face by a neighbor whom we thought we could trust, Kaylie having had her top surgery back in February, Getting a new kitten that we’ve named Freya back in December, I can’t think of anything from November or October but in September I had to make the decision to let Ozzy go over the rainbow bridge. Yep, that one broke me for a while, I’m still not over his passing. There are times I think I can hear him meowing, strange I know but I do. I miss the little guy like crazy, of course he was with me for fourteen years and one can’t just get over that. There are times when we get food from McDonalds, I get chicken nuggets just so I can eat them in his honor, those who know me remember that Ozzy’s favorite food was chicken nuggets and they had to be from McDonalds. He wouldn’t’ eat them from anywhere else. I still laugh when I think of that. You’d think a cat wouldn’t know the difference but trust me, he did. Last June I got a job! Yay! I’m working at the Mankato Country Inn and Suites now and I absolutely love my work. I’m a laundry attendant and my duties are to fold and put away clean laundry and whatever else they may need me to do. Like I said, so much has gone on in the past year.

Back here in the present

I’m working with my job coach to help with finding a second job, yes, I’ll still be working at the hotel but I’m looking for something else to fill more of my time. Admittedly the extra income would be a bonus as well, with the cost of living going up and prices rising at the grocery store a second job would be a huge help. Also, I’m wondering if I will have to start paying more for transportation as the gas prices are on the way up. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind paying my way I’m just thinking that they may raise the cost of my bus fare which I understand could happen. This remains to be seen.
There are two possibilities for work. The first is going back to Land to Air Express. I really do miss this job; it was one of my favorite places to work until things got messed up. The second is a place called The Creative Company, they are a company that sends out children’s books to different school programs and individuals with kids. I believe that either job would be an excellent job. Things at Land to Air have changed tremendously so no worries on that front, I have no concerns whatsoever about going back there. Once the decision is made, I’ll let you know which one panned out for me.

The other day I tweeted something about not considering this place to be home anymore when using swarmup. The tweet read: I no longer consider this place to be home. (@ River Crossing Townhomes. I’m not going to post the entire thing but that was the jest of it. Many of you asked if we were ok and what was happening, and I thought that it might be easier if I wrote in this blog and let you all read it so I wouldn’t have to type everything out more than once. So, here are my reasons for stating what I did.

• Ongoing maintenance issues.
• Ongoing maintenance issues.

1. Our dishwasher is leaking horribly and leaving all kinds of water and dirt under it. It’s now beginning to spread from under the thing creating problems of another kind. I will bet all my tax money that there’s mold under there.
2. Our door still has locking problems. When the fix it guy came over to put in a new lock, he put it in upside down and it’s super loose. There’s another issue with it but I feel I shouldn’t say what that is. If you want to know, just ask me in private.
3. We still have holes in the walls that were already there when we moved in. These aren’t little nail holes, they are huge.
4. The kitchen floor is coming apart at the seams and moving. The floor’s made up of faux wood meaning it’s not really wood but resembles it. Water comes up through it and it’s making it very uneven and cracking it.
5. The bathroom exhaust fan is still broken and considered to be a fire hazard. Also, the ceiling in there still sags and has black lines throughout.
6. Some of the wall outlets are still loose and have no plates on them. This is self-explanatory.
7. The carpet has tacks poking up through it. They did come to lay new carpet but were supposed to return to stretch it and that never happened so now we’ve got tack strips once again showing and poking our feet. Walking barefoot, not recommended.
I’m sure there are more that I’m not thinking of now, but you get the idea.

• Drugs and drug busts.

In our complex drugs are a huge problem. People smoking crystal meth is the biggest issue. I don’t really mind the marijuana use; you can smell it all over the place. The meth though, that’s not something Kaylie needs to be around, none of us need to be around that stuff.
Not long ago there was a drug bust in the second building of our complex. I don’t remember all the details of what was found and how much but again not something we need nor want to be around.

• The neighbors, not so friendly.

1. Cat. Cat was always one of these people who was a bit strange but aren’t we all in our own way? She was fun to be around unless she was drinking and numerous times, we asked her to stay away when she was drunk. She did respect this for a while, only popping over when she was sober. Things with her were fine because she told us one day she had stopped with the alcohol. She decided for whatever reason to start drinking again, that’s her business but again we told her not to come here when drinking. We told her we like sober her but drunk her was not so fun to be around. So, to make a long story short, she came over one night with her dog. As usual she was drunk and didn’t ask for permission to enter our home. We asked her to please take her dog home as Luna is not a dog cat, she refused to go. Things became heated after a bit and Kaylie ended up getting punched in the mouth. I called the police at that point, and they came out to take a statement and Kaylie is pressing charges and getting a restraining order put on her. All of that could have been prevented had Cat only left when we asked her to. Kaylie was going in for her top surgery the next day and we didn’t need any trouble from her royal drunkenness. We no longer trust Cat and she hates us. She’s of course playing the victim when Kaylie was the one who got punched.
2. Neighbors with dogs around here do not know how to clean up their dog’s poo, in the spring and summer time this makes it undesirable to sit out on our patio due to the horrid smell and the flies that the poo attracts. We have called the city because the property owner either doesn’t care to reprimand the people with said dogs or they just refuse to listen. I’m guessing that they just refuse to listen because the city did come out here and even sent the police to talk to them and still nothing gets done about it. I’m afraid to walk on the edge of the sidewalk because there has been dog’s mess left there too.
3. The late-night parties that get thrown here are loud. Normally I’m not a stickler for this type of issue but when I must work the next morning and I get woke up by loud music and yelling, something has to give. When the neighbors have bene approached nicely about this, they just say “well we have a social life and I’m going to continue to do what I want. If you can’t accept that, that’s not my problem.” The police officers can’t even do anything except to come and talk to them, but the action of the neighbors continues.
We just don’t feel safe or comfortable here anymore. When we first moved in the property owner said she wanted us to consider this our forever home but how can we do that when crap like this is going on and nothing changes when you report it? Personally, I think there needs to be background checks performed and that doesn’t happen. People move here because they know that they can get away with things and they believe there are no consequences for their transgressions. On a scale of 1-5 I give this complex a negative one million. I do not recommend anyone move here.
4. The trains that come through here all times of the day and night. Not to mention they shake our house and make it feel like an earthquake. Okay so I might be exaggerating just a bit, but they do make our house shake. I know that seems minor to some, but this is ridiculous.
5. The ice in our driveway. Cat has a job with this complex putting salt down and shoveling the snow but ever since the incident with Kaylie she won’t come near our building to do said job. Because of this Kaylie has fallen on her bad knee and I’ve almost done so a number of times.
Currently I’m looking for a new home for Kaylie, our cats and me to move to. I’m so over this hell that I feel I have brought us into. I say this because I was the one who really wanted to come here, I now wish I hadn’t.
So, there you have it. These are the reason I want to get away from this place and that I no longer feel I can call this complex home.

Well, there you have it. I will attempt to keep this thing updated. Yeah, yeah, I know I’ve said this before, but I truly do need to do this.

I’m off for now, going to go poke around on to see if there’s anything interesting for jobs that I might be able to do. Kaylie wants to do some sort of work or volunteering, so I’ll peek for her too.

You all take care of yourselves.
“When you can’t find the sunshine, be the sunshine.”
Peace, love, and positivity to you all.

Belated St. Patrick’s Day

Mood: I don’t know
Music: Irish songs on the Spectrum music channel
Location: Deeply in my head

Dia dhuit ar maidin agus Lá Fhéile Pádraig Sona Daoibh! Good morning and happy St. Patrick’s day to you all! Belated I wish you this. LOL! I didn’t get around to posting yesterday like I had planned.

Some groaners for you…
Here are a few Irish jokes that I saw one of the people I follow on twitter post and I was amused by the first one.

1. What do you call a knife that cuts 4 loaves of Irish bread at once.
A four loaf cleaver.

2. Why do people wear shamrocks on St Patrick’s day?
Regular rocks are too heavy.

3. Why is it a bad idea to iron a four leaf clover?
Because you shouldn’t press your luck!

One more thing I found amusing, This came from another person on twitter I follow.
“Got my stimmy on St. Patrick’s Day. Call that luck of the IRS.”
Some did have the luck of the IRS I suppose, to those who didn’t, hang in there. It’s coming.

I hope you all had a happy and safe St. Patrick’s day no matter how you celebrated. Unfortunately we didn’t get to do that this year as we hadn’t gotten to go to the grocery store to get the things I needed. I had planned to make a traditional Irish stew, soda bread and I hadn’t yet decided what I was going to make for dessert. I wanted to wake up yesterday morning and make an Irish breakfast complete with real Irish coffee but it didn’t happen. I still plan to do this, it will just be late. I’m not making corn beef and cabbage as that is not truly Irish, Emmy has never had Irish food so I want her to experience that. I just hope she likes it, she did say she’ll try anything once so here’s hoping.

My job coach came over yesterday, I totally forgot she was coming and I was so embarrassed. She told me not to worry about it and we just rescheduled for next Wednesday at 1:00. I need to write these things down I swear. The older you get, the more you begin to forget things. I did read that blueberries improve memory so I think I’ll start eating those more than I already do, maybe it will help. LOL!

This past Tuesday Emmy and I got the first dose of our vaccine. We ended up getting the Pfizer one, we go back for our second dose April 16. I’m not sure how i feel about this really. The first one went alright except I woke up quite a few times Tuesday night with a racing heart. I don’t know if that was a side affect of the shot or if it was just my heart being goofy again. I have gone in so many times about my heart and every time they tell me there’s nothing wrong and my heart is just fine. Don’t get me wrong, I am thankful beyond belief about this but there are times I just don’t feel right. Maybe I worry too much and that’s why i feel weird, i do know that worrying and stress can cause things to happen with your body that isn’t supposed to. Anyway I digress. I didn’t really have any side affects but i was a bit more tired than normal. Emmy had a super sore arm but I didn’t. It ached a little but not near as bad as hers does. I’m scared about the second dose as they said that’s when you could have the worst side affects. I almost wish we had gotten the Moderna because then I’d have a bit of an idea of what to expect as my AHRMS workers and my therapist got that one. Better yet, the Johnson and Johnson one would have been the best because I would have only had to get one does, the downside to that is it is the least affective or so I’ve heard. Honestly, I’d have been willing to risk it. I hate needles. I’ve considered not getting the second dose but Lura told me that I got the first one so I might as well go through with the second. She’s right, we all have to do our part to try and end this pandemic. I miss life the way it used to be but the question is? Will life ever go back to the way it used to be? Only time will tell. Somehow I don’t see it though. That’s tough for me to say as I’m usually the optimistic one. We can only hope and pray it does.

I don’t really have anything planned for the day though I do have my show at 6:00 this evening eastern time. Between a Rock and a Hard Place will air on XTFM, I don’t really have a theme for this show so it’s pretty much anything goes as long as it’s rock or metal. If you want to check me out, visit for listening links or tell Lady A or whatever your choice of smart speaker is to play Xtransmission radio from tune in. Hope to see you there!

Okay, this is the end till next time. I hope you all have a wonderful day filled with love, joy, peace and positivity.
Be good to yourselves and each other.
Practice self-care because it’s good for you.


Hi Ho, Winter the Kitten Here

Mood: Optimistic
Location: Somewhere between here and there
Listening to: I’m Not Okay (I Promise) by My Chemical Romance


I hope this entry finds you all well, I’m doing alright for 6:58 in the morning. I haven’t slept a whole lot but it’s okay. I’m on teamtalk at moment With the dove, we’re having fun hanging out and listening to Spotify. Hello emo playlists! :P.

So what have i been up to lately? Not too terribly much actually.
On Tuesday March 16, Emmy and I are scheduled to receive our Covid-19 vaccine. I’m not sure how I feel about this, on one hand I know that it is something that needs to be done and on the other I’m afraid. I’m not worried because of all of the conspiracy theories out there but due to the shots rapid release. Usually it takes years for vaccines to be tested and tried for side affects and the three that are out now haven’t been out that long. The comforting knowledge is that there have been many people who have gotten the shot and they are okay with minimal side affects. We are hoping that we can get the Pfizer vaccination as it is the most effective but we will take which ever they have for us. I was told that we could reschedule if we didn’t want the one they had that day but if we did that there’s a chance they still might not have the Pfizer one and it could take a while to get in again. I do know I’m glad to be doing my part to keep myself and others safe, I still mask up when I go out and I wash my hands like crazy. Getting the coronavirus once was enough for me, I don’t want that stuff again. No way! To those who have gotten their shot already, awesome! I’m glad you are all alright.

Last week we had our first thunderstorm of the season! It wasn’t much but it was still exciting for me, I absolutely love storms as long as they don’t turn tornatic. I just wish I could still see the lightning, I used to love to sit and watch it. There’s something really beautiful about the way it looks, I get chills thinking about it. We had temps in the fifties and sixties and now we are under a winter storm warning, it’s hard to rap my head around. I shouldn’t be too surprised though, I do live in Minnesota and the weather here is so unpredictable at times. We are expecting to see 5-8 inches of the awful white stuff. Sorry to those who love snow but I dislike it. Don’t get me wrong, it’s pretty and all but it makes travel difficult for us here where we live because they aren’t very good at cleaning off the sidewalks and if they do they block the corners so it makes it almost impossible to cross the street. Hopefully this will be the last snow fall of the season. Technically it is still winter time I suppose.

I have finally started meeting with my job coach again as of this past Thursday. It has been a while since i lost saw her but it’s understandable with the state of things as they are at the current moment. It is really tough to think of searching for jobs right now due to the fact that even the sighted people are having trouble finding jobs. I don’t say that to be negative, it’s just the truth. We did find a couple of possible jobs though but i don’t wish to say what yet until I know what I’m doing. We have a few questions that we need to ask regarding one of them and i don’t know how it’s going to end. I am keeping an open mind and a positive outlook on things though. We are meeting next Wednesday again so hopefully I will have some answers then.
I’m a bit upset however because at the end of this month I’m being transfered to someone new. I feel that I’m getting passed around from one person to another and it makes it tough because it’s like having to start all over again. I’m thinking the positive from this is that maybe the new person will know better how to work with a blind person as my current job coach has admitted to me that she’s never worked with a sight impaired person before. Personally for never having worked with someone who is blind she has done a really grate job of helping me with the search for work. No, that’s not me being sarcastic either, I mean that from the bottom of my gothic vampyric heart.

I’ve been thinking of school again, I truly want to do this thing. If only I could somehow get my remaining balance paid off so that they would send my transcripts to my college of choice…I know some of you may be thinking well you are getting a stimulus check, you could use that. Believe me, I have seriously thought of doing just that but I have also considered paying off old credit card debt as well. If only I hadn’t allowed my ex to help max out my cards I wouldn’t be in this position. The promises of “I’ll pay you back” were just empty words. I shouldn’t have allowed it and I do take responsibility for my part in this as well. Life would be much easier if I had just said no. Ah well, I can’t dwell on the past, i just need to figure out how to move forward from here to achieve my goals. There are a couple of things I’d like to go to college for, social work and Ais (american indigenous studies) like i had first planned but then there’s foreign language interpreting. I took three years of Spanish in high school so I’d like to continue that. I’d pretty much be starting over as i haven’t used it in ages but I’m definitely up for the challenge and the other plus to that is I have someone to speak with so I wouldn’t get rusty with it again. I’ll have to give this some serious thought.

Well, I don’t have anything else at the present so I’ll close out for now. I hope you all have a wonderful day filled with love, joy, peace and positivity.


Just Another Day

Greetings readers.

I hope this entry finds you all doing well. I’m tired but I’m still awake though I am mentally exhausted. I have to wonder if I’m taking on way too much. I love to help my friends when they are going through things but with the lack of sleep and my own physical stuff going on I just don’t know. Will I stop? Nope, probably not. Why did that last line make me think of a Vanilla Ice song? Ice Ice Baby to be exact. “Will it ever stop? Yo! I don’t know. Turn off the lights, and I’ll glow
To the extreme, I rock a mic like a vandal
Light up a stage and wax a chump like a candle…” and so on. Yes, I do know all of the lyrics to this song. Now that’s a song I haven’t heard in ages. In spite of feeling so tired I’m doing alright though I think some self-care is in order. I’m always telling others to practice that and so now maybe I should take my own advice.

So something exciting…I’m referring to the Perseverance having landed on Mars! I’m going to leave this link here, it’s not very loud but if you listen with headphones you may be able to hear it. It’s sounds from the planet. I just wish I could see the video of the landing and what things look like up there.

Emmy was trolling…erm…wait…I mean scrolling through Facebook earlier today and she read this to me and I found it amusing.

“On the first day, God created the dog and said, sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this I will give you a life span of twenty years.
The dog said, “That’s a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I’ll give you back the other ten?”
And God said that it was good.
On the second day, God created the monkey and said, “Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I’ll give you a twenty-year life span.”
The monkey said, “Monkey tricks for twenty years? That’s a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the dog did?”
And God again said that it was good.
On the third day, God created the cow and said, “You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer’s family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.”
The cow said, “That’s kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. How about twenty and I’ll give back the other forty?”
And God agreed it was good.
On the fourth day, God created humans and said, “Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I’ll give you twenty years.”
But the human said, “Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?”
“Okay,” said God, “You asked for it.”
So that is why for our first twenty years, we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years, we slave in the sun to support our family. For the next ten years, we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren. And for the last ten years, we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.
Life has now been explained to you.
There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I’m doing it as a public service. If you are looking for me I will be on the front porch….”

So, I’m to understand that you can use wordpress as a website but I don’t know how to make this happen. I’m hoping to find someone that can teach me the ways of WordPress. I am wanting to turn into a website where I can publish poetry, music, and so much more. I have been wanting a website for so many years now and have never had the chance to learn how to set one up as I don’t know anyone who can teach it.

There’s now a spam blocker here now so comments can be left once again and I’ll see them, that is if you wish to leave them. This is in no way me begging for comments so please don’t feel obligated to do so. I just thought I’d let you all know just in case you wanted to, the option is there.

Well, I suppose this is all for now. Be safe everyone and take care of yourselves and each other.


Love is Love!

LISTENING TO: Disturbed – Who Taught You How to Hate
Mood: Angry

DISCLAIMER! I’m warning you all now; this entry isn’t going to be a nice one. You are going to see a side of me that you may have never seen before. I won’t apologize for this, I’m angry and I intend to let it be known.
I will say to those who are Christian and who are open minded I do apologize to you; I’m not knocking your faith. I have never had an issue with Christianity as a whole, just its judgmental sheople.
The nature of this entry is of the defending the LGBTQ community kind, I had a boss who is gay and he is as Christian as they come. I miss him, he was definitely cool people. If you’re all continuing to read, you have been warned.

This starts what my rant is about…
“I am truly disgusted in what this World has come to. I’m sorry lord that we allow same-sex marriage is in your churches. I’m sorry people disgracing your name is just an every day thing for most people. I’m sorry that most of society thinks things like abortion are okay. I’m sorry that our children are being taught they evolved from a fish in school. I’m sorry that people who are transgender are being told that it is perfectly normal. I’m sorry that most Christians are afraid to tell the truth, because they are worried of what people might think of them.” However, this will all change upon your return.”
End reading…

I am truly disgusted in your judgmental, fake ass Christian, closed minded, idiotic, thoughts on what you see as “unnatural” way of thinking. No, you didn’t use the word unnatural but you may as well have! First of all, you aren’t a true Christian because if you were you’d know that judging others is wrong, it says so in the bible which yes, even though I’m pagan I have read from cover to cover so I do know what it says. Personally I think the true Christians are the ones who live like they should and follow the no judgment rule. They have good hearts and help others. They spread the word of God without trying to force their thoughts and beliefs down your throat. To me, that’s what a good Christian is. I do have friends who are Christian and they are some of the most awesome people that I know. Why is it that the Christians who put so much stock in their “good book” don’t follow what it says? Second, why do you think that two people of the same sex who love each other are wrong for getting married in churches? Would you accept it any better if they got married outside of a church? No, more than likely you wouldn’t. What is so wrong with two people of the same sex loving each other? They can no more help falling in love than a straight couple; you are just like the many sheople who learn from a young age that it’s wrong so you preach that it is. How about learning to think for yourself instead of going by what your parents and everyone who has filled your head with crap has drilled into that pea sized brain of yours. Love is love no matter what anyone has told you, you can love the same sex or not it’s your choice. No one’s trying to get you to fall for a partner of your same gender and you can’t’ catch it by having a friendship with someone who is LGBTQ. It isn’t’ your call to make about who loves who. Third, yes it is perfectly okay to be transgender! It’s not like a transgender person wakes up in the morning and says to their self, self?” I think I’ll be a girl today or I think I’ll be a man today. It doesn’t work like that. They can’t help that they were born in the wrong body. That’s not something a cisgender person would or even could understand. I do know however that my fiancé is transgender and I watch what she goes through everyday, it’s a struggle for her especially when her dysphoria kicks in. Sheople like you however wouldn’t understand this because you are too closed minded to learn about what transgender persons have to deal with. How would you feel if the roles were reversed? If gays, lesbians, bisexuals, pansexuals (which I am one BTW and proud of it), transgender, queer or questioning were the majority and not the minority and we said it’s not okay to be straight and straight people loving each other is wrong and it’s disgusting, how would you feel? You’d probably be as angry and hurt as our community is. But you know what? We will prevail, we are strong and no matter what you can’t tear us down. We are united and together we stand as one because love is love! No one and I do mean no one can change that for us. We proudly let our freak flags fly, we let our pride flags fly, we proudly fly our trans-gender flags high and we will not be beaten! You have your beliefs and I have mine, if God truly wants his “children” to be happy and I have no doubts that he does then he’d approve of whomever we choose to love, he’d be fine with transgender people doing what they need to do to make themselves feel right. He wouldn’t’ give up on them and say well I guess that person’s going to hell. I’d like to think that he loves us the way we are and for who we are. If not, that’s not a God I’d like to serve anyway. Oh and as for your thoughts that Christians are afraid to tell the truth because of what people might think of them? How do you know that the way they feel aren’t how they actually feel? Are you inside their heads? No! You know what they say about assuming right? If not, go look it up. I’m not even going to go into the other things in that statement above which sparked this entry. I have been attempting really hard to respect the Christian god by not taking his name in vain, that’s out of respect for my friends who are of the Christian faith.
Rant over.

I am hungry so I need to go and find breakfast but I hope you all have a grate rest of your day. May it be filled with love, joy, peace and positivity. If you did make it through this entry I thank you for reading and not judging. As I have stated, I have absolutely nothing against Christianity and everyone has their beliefs but I was so angered by that person’s statement. I do respect her for her faith but truly we can’t help who we are.
Alright, peace out.


The Rainbow Kitty Says Hello

Greetings to all.

I hope this entry finds you well. I’m doing alright, I can’t believe I’m awake at this ungodly hour but here I am. I did sleep for a bit so maybe that’s why I’m up. I just wish I could get my sleeping schedule back to normal but I cant’ seem to do so. Oy well, since I’m here I might as well write.

So just a quick note here, for those who are using discord and needing to learn things about how to navigate it using a screen reader here’s a link that may help you.

Changeling’s Guide to Discord for Screen Reader Users

I have been asked by many people about why I keep posting about saving the dolphins in Taiji Japan or why I care about what color the cove is on a daily basis. I have found a link that will answer your questions if interested. If after reading you still have questions, please don’t hesitate to ask me. I love raising awareness for this horrific act that goes on there. I will also say be aware of what you will read, it’s not pretty.

Taiji Facts/Frequently Asked Questions

For a bit of amusement I stole this from Facebook and thought, why not? So, here goes…

* How old are you backwards: 64.
* Tattoos: None.
* Ever hit a deer: No, but I was in a car with someone who did.
* Rode in an ambulance: Yup sure have.
* Iced skate: Yes but not for many years.
* Rode a motorcycle: Yep.
* Stayed in hospital: Unfortunately.
* Last cell phone call: Flint.
* Last text from: Bianca.
* Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi.
* Favorite pie: Pumpkin or lemon meringue.
* Favorite season: Spring and autumn.
* Broken Bones: I have had no broken bones but I’ve had a fractured ankle, it was fractured in three places.
* Received a ticket: Nope.
* Favorite color: In my case it would be colors, purple, red, blue and black.
* Sunrise or Sunset: Definitely sunset though I do like the sunrise as well.
* Ocean or Mountains: The Ocean.
* Dog or Cat: I love all animals.
* Morning or evening: I like both for different reasons.
* Who will play: I don’t know though it’s irrelevant because this isn’t FB but my journal. However if you wanted to leave your answers in a comment, I wouldn’t be opposed to that.

Valentine’s Day was sort of a bust. I felt really bad because pretty much right after dinner I fell asleep. I think Emmy felt a bit cheated because she wanted to hang out and do things like watch movies but instead I went horizontal and that was all I wrote apparently. To be fair I hadn’t slept well that night and hadn’t gotten much rest so I was a bit tired. She said she wasn’t mad at me but I still felt like a heel for doing that to her. Dinner was grate though. We had Lasagna, Caesar salad and garlic Texas toast. We were silly and drank milk out of wine goblets because we didn’t’ have any wine. For dessert which neither one of us ate because we were full, there were sugar cookies decorated for the day and/or lemon bars, some plain and some with chocolate on them. They came out with a new ice cream which I thought would have been perfect for the dessert but I didn’t have any and I couldn’t have gotten it had I wanted too. It is only at Krogers which we do not have here in MN, such a shame in my opinion. It is called strawberry champagne and the description is as follows: a strawberry ice cream base with a glittering champagne ribbon and rosé fizzing candy. Like I said it would have been perfect for the holiday and it sounds really yummy too.

I went to the food co op today. I love going to that place because it has such a feel good vibe to it. I got a few groceries there for my health food pantry which I haven’t yet created but plan to do so soon. I looked at whey protein for my smoothies and they wanted way too much for it, I’m not sure if I can find it cheaper online but I plan to have a look to see if I can find it. I also got two packages of Kind bars which I absolutely love, I haven’t tried these two particular flavors yet though but they sounded really good. I have to be careful of which ones of those I get though because some of them include coconut which I cannot eat, so reading labels is a definite thing. Kashi cereals are my friends as well, they are super good for you from what I understand so I got two flavors to try to see if I like them. I’m sure I will, one is called Strawberry Fields and the other is called Chocolate Cocoa. You just can’t go wrong with strawberries or chocolate.

The Lent season begins Wednesday Feb 17 and I don’t usually take part in that anymore but this year I have decided too. So this year I’m giving up all forms of soda, chips and cookies or anything that can be considered junk food actually. The only exception for me is dark chocolate as that does have some health benefits. Dropping soda is something I have wanted to do for a while now and this will give me the push to do so. I know that some may probably scoff at me but this is what I need to do for myself, my friends can either support me or not but I’m doing this either way. The trick is going to be staying strong enough when the teasing does come and I know it will, I know I can do this. I have the will and I know that I can conquer. I know that I’ll feel much better for doing so in the end.

Alright, I think I’m finished with this entry finally. I’ll write again soon or at least I’ll try.

You all take care of yourselves and each other. I hope that today is filled with love, joy, peace and positivity for all of you. No matter what life throws your way, try to hold your head high and let your beautiful lights shine in a world that needs your brightness, don’t let anyone dim or snuff out your light.


Lá Vailintín sona duit, Happy Valentine’s Day!

LISTENING TO: The clock chiming noon
CURRENT MOOD: Sleepy but content

<3<3<3 Happy Valentine’s Day! <3<3<3, or Lá Vailintín sona duit!

Good Sunday to you all!

I hope this entry finds you all doing well. As for me, I’m alright, can’t complain. I’ve been up half the night so I’m quite tired currently but it’s ok. Falling asleep at about…never mind, I have forgotten what time I fell asleep but I know that it was in the evening way before I meant to and getting up at like 2:15 AM will do that to a person. I fully intend to go and take a nap as soon as I’m finished writing this.
I just wanted to come out here and say I hope you all have a fun day filled with lots of love, no matter if you have a significant other or not, you are all still loved and cherished by someone. If you celebrate I hope your day is special, if you don’t then I hope you have a wonderful Sunday. I know this holiday isn’t for everyone and I whole heartedly agree that we don’t need just one day to show that special someone that we love them, you should do that everyday. You have to admit though, the chocolates are a bonus. : P. Okay, not for all because there are those who don’t like chocolate and I’m so sorry you don’t, chocolate is life and fixes almost everything. Seriously though, have an awesome day no matter what you are doing.

So I wrote these “Roses are red” things on twitter and I thought I’d post them here as well as one day I will look back on this journal and ask myself, self” What on earth were you thinking when you came up with these? They are a bit cheesy I admit but here they are all the same. I do mean every word of them; they have come from my little gothic heart. The vampire in me is hissing at me right now. LOL!

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Hoping your day is filled with love that is true.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Just wanted you to know, I’m here for all of you.

And the last one…

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Too all of my friends, I love and cherish all of you.

Alright, enough of the sappy…

For those who know, Ozzy had to go to the vet. I took him and the vet said that for his age, he’s alright. They clipped his claws so that was taken care of and he can jump and walk with no pain in his poor little paws. The vet did say that he’s old and there really isn’t anything they can do for him at this time. The good thing is, I didn’t have to make the decision to let him go over the rainbow bridge and for that I’m grateful. I wasn’t ready; will I ever be ready though? I know I could if he were suffering but seeing how he isn’t its all good. The only thing is, he has a sinus issue now and there isn’t a cure for that so we just have to watch him and make sure that he’s okay. I’m going to get him some Glucosamine for his joints, I just put that in some human chicken flavored baby food and he’s golden. That cat loves his chicken and I love him.

Well I’m off to hopefully take a much needed nap before waking up and cooking dinner tonight for Emmy. I think I’m making lasagna, Caesar salad and garlic toast. For dessert? Valentine’s Day cookies or lemon bars, she gets to choose. I just wish I had a bottle of some good wine to have with it, strawberries and champagne or something like that. Ah well better planning for next year. :).

I hope you all have a lovely rest of your day filled with love, joy, peace and positivity.
Take care of yourselves and one another.


Good Lord it’s February!

Good morning readers.

LISTENING TO: Bullet Boys – Livin’ on a Prayer

I hope this entry finds you well, I’m well enough with no complaints. I’m sitting here listening to hair metal which for those of you who know me knows that it’s my favorite genre of music. The album is called 101 Power Ballads. I do not currently own this album but I must. I’m playing it on Amazon music, shameless plug!

Well, today we say goodbye to January and greet February. I find myself asking where has the last month gone? Time just keeps flying by and at times it makes me feel a little sad. Why? I’m not to sure; I just know that it does. Maybe it’s the whole “the older you get the faster time flies” thing. By today’s standards I’m not really that old though I keep telling myself that I am. When will I ever learn to stop judging myself? Ah, the questions of life that I cannot answer. I truly am in a good mood, I promise.

Things seem to be looking up when it comes to the housing stuff. We had to get legal aide involved and the city building inspector as well. Finally they have taken care of some of the maintenance issues. We now have a lock on our back door though the dude put it on upside down and he took the lock from the upstairs back door. The second bedroom now has a new door but that also came from upstairs. The refrigerator has new door strips that hold the food in that…yup you guessed it…came from upstairs as well. This totally annoys me because now the upstairs place will get new things and we are stuck with the old. Some of you may say just be glad it got taken care of and yes, I am happy but why couldn’t we have gotten the new stuff as promised? They put in all new things upstairs and we get stuck with used. I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with having used things, I shop at thrift stores for goodness sake and am proud to announce it but for once why can’t people keep their promises? Anyway, off that rant, things are getting repaired and I suppose in the grand scheme of things that’s all that really matters. After our lease is up, we are considering a move, I have called this place called The Sibley Park Apartments but that’s a no right from the start because they don’t’ allow pets and I’m not giving up my cats. The hunt will continue, we’d like to get into a house, an honest to goodness house. Emmy’s mother has suggested that we leave Mankato and head for Rochester, I think we are considering it because of Emmy’s Trans care. We will see though.

On the job front I have found nothing as of yet, I didn’t really expect to with covid-19 still a thing. I haven’t given up looking though at times I want to. I’m not one to throw in the towel so easily. If I could find something from home, that would be perfect. I suppose me and everyone else searching for work is thinking the same way. I still need to do my brush up on Microsoft Xcel that would definitely help with finding work. Almost everywhere I have looked needs you to be proficient with Microsoft office and I am not, I’d like to be though.

My cat Ozzy turned eighteen years old On January eighteenth this year. For his age he’s not doing too badly, he’s moving a bit slower than he used to and his fur’s matted because I don’t think he’s grooming like he should. I will be taking him to the vet this month to get that resolved and I’m going to put him back on Glucosamine for his joints. Hopefully he will feel much better afterwards. I’m also going to invest in a heated cat bed for him because he gets cold easily and once he’s been shaved, because I’m certain that’s what the vet is going to suggest I have done he will need a place to keep warm. My poor old man. He’s still eating and drinking so that’s a good thing, I’m so afraid that he’s going to leave us soon and I’m definitely not looking forward to it, but no one looks to the time when they will end up losing a member of their family do they? I’m just going to enjoy the time I have left with him. I try not to think about it and still love and care for him like normal. I do love my little man, my little old man.

I signed up for a year of distrokid! As soon as I can I’ll get my songs uploaded and I will be able to be heard on all of the music platforms! I’m kind of excited and scared both about this. I’m hoping all goes well with it, my artist name is Winter Rose, I’ll update you all when I have done.

Well I suppose that’s all for now. I’ll try and write again soon. I truly do want to keep up with this thing this year so I will try hard to do this thing. I can’t promise but I’ll definitely make a grate effort.

You all take care of yourselves and each other.
I hope you all have an amazing day filled with love, joy, peace and positivity. Believe in yourself, be kind to yourself, be good to yourself, tell yourself that you are somebody and that no one can bring you down. To me you matter and you are good enough, you are loved, you are cared for, you are beautiful and you are wonderful. My wishes for you are peace, happiness, love, joy, a happy home and hearth and a lifetime of friendships that are true and never end. Have a grate day all and always let your bright lights shine, don’t’ let anyone darken them.


Bye Bye 2020!

Happy New Years eve!

Ok so it’s already 2021 for some of you, happy new year to those already in 2021!

Just wanted to write this to give a huge goodbye and good riddance to 2020, I’m so done and over it and am ready for it to go away. May 2021 be your year, may you be blessed and may the new year bring lots of good things to all.

We didn’t do much for the end of the year for a celebration. We were supposed to have a friend over but he got sick and so we just ordered McDonalds and hung out on Tt.

I don’t really have a year end review as not much happened this year what with lock down and the coronavirus. I was unlucky enough to have it back in May and let me tell you it wasn’t fun at all. Thank goodness I was able to recover from it at home, for that I’m thankful. I think that was the biggest thing that happened this year. I still don’t have my full sense of smell and taste back yet but they’re returning slowly.

Anyway, I’m sorry this is so short but I’m tired and don’t have a lot of energy right now, not even for writing which is sad.

Have a good night everyone and no matter what you may be doing to celebrate I hope you are being safe.
Have fun! And I’ll write again next year.

Take care of yourselves and each other.

Winter the vampiress