Just a Small Update

Chosen Quote for Today: In case no one has told you today, you are enough. You are loved. If all you’re doing is living, it’s enough. Keep being your amazing beautiful self. -Author unknown
Mood: Tired
Music: The silence of the fox den
Location: The land of deep thoughts
Celebrating a Birthday Today: Cyndi Lauper (69), Meryl Streep(73), Tracy Pollan(62), Scritti Politti’s Green Gartside(67), INXS’ Gary Beers(65), Jimmy Somerville(61), Schooly D(56) & Clyde Drexler(60)

What’s on my mind? Way too much to even begin to get things straightened out inside my head, so for now I’m ignoring all of my racing thoughts. I wish I could shut off my brain for a bit, but I suppose that wouldn’t be such a great idea. My thoughts are not necessarily negative ones, they’re just too numerous and I want my brain to take a rest if only for a bit. Yes, that’s it, just for a bit.

I hope today’s entry finds all my readers doing well. Despite my racing mind I’m doing pretty good. I have my health, my cats, my Kaylie, my life and I woke up to breath another day which I’m grateful for.

The past two days it was hot here, temps were well into the nineties with the feel like temperature of 108 on Monday and 106 on Sunday. Tuesday wasn’t too bad with the humidity breaking and it was only about 88 for the high and today was about 84. Tomorrow is supposed to be about 94 with the humidity and dew points making a comeback, I’m not looking forward to that but with thunderstorms returning for the next few days returning it will cool things right off again. Thank goodness!

I just finished watching season ten of Heartland and I still can’t stand Lou, that woman drives me absolutely insane! My favorite character is still Amy and my favorite couple is Amy and Ty. Amy has given birth to her baby and I can’t wait to see what they name it, of course I need to find that out in season eleven. This show is so totally worth watching, it has tear jerkers and man do they know how to end episodes on cliffies. Phew! I highly recommend anyone watch if they love horses and twisted plots.

Work is thinking of extending my Saturday hours! I’m excited about the prospect, I’m hoping I’ll find out about that this weekend when I go back. I was talking to one of my bosses last Saturday and the short but awesome conversation went something like this.

Boss: You all done for the day?
Me: Yes, you know at times I don’t feel like as if my Saturdays are long enough.
Boss: Well, we can keep you longer if you like.
Me: Okay! I would be fine with this.
Boss: You looking to expand your hours on Saturday?
Me: You know? I really would not mind that at all.
Boss: Let me talk to Anna and I’ll see if that would be alright, we could really use you if she approves more hours. Our Saturdays are really busy.
Me: Awesome! Thank you so much!
Boss: Yeah, you’re welcome.
The end.
On Monday I hadn’t heard anything about it so I’m guessing she didn’t have the chance to speak with her yet. Keeping fingers crossed that it works out, I could really use the extra income.
I’m still searching for a second job, nothing has come up yet but it will. There has got to be something out there for me, I just know it.

Currently Flint and Kaylie have fallen into a zoned out state of being. Flint’s sitting on the couch and Kaylie in her computer chair. I wouldn’t be surprised if they fall asleep or have already fallen. Yup, I hear snoring coming from over on the couch. I just knew it, I so knew it. :P.

Well, I’m feeling a bit nauseous so I’m going to head off. I hope you all have a wonderful night but before I go I’ve got a recipe that sounds really good.

Crock-Pot French Toast Casserole

INGREDIENTS:

12 Slices Bread (Each Slice Cut Into Thirds)
5 Large Eggs
1 ½ Cups Milk
½ Cup Unsalted Butter (Melted)
1 Cup Brown Sugar
1 Teaspoon Ground Cinnamon
1 Teaspoon Pure Vanilla Extract
¼ Teaspoon Ground Nutmeg

DIRECTIONS:

1. Layer the bread pieces in the bottom of a 3.5 quart casserole slow cooker OR a 6 quart or larger slow cooker in a crisscross pattern.
2. In a medium mixing bowl, whisk together the remaining ingredients well.
3. Pour egg mixture evenly over bread in slow cooker.
4. Cover and cook on HIGH for 3 to 4 hours or until the casserole is set but not soggy.
5. Serve slices drizzled topped with maple syrup or fresh fruit.

Alright, that’s all she wrote until next time…*wave*.

You Take the Bad With the Good

Quote of the Day:
“Stay positive even when it feels like your whole world is falling apart.” — Unknown
Dumb but amusing joke:
Q: What did the big chimney say to the little chimney?
A: You’re too young to smoke.

Mood: I don’t know.
Music: Cry by Faith Hill
Location: The Fox Den

Greetings Humans.

Have you ever had a day where all you feel like doing is crying with no reason as to why you want to? You have no idea why, but you can’t seem to get your traitor tears under control, today this is me. Actually, this has been me for the past couple of days. So, I suppose I could say that I have L.E.S. (Leaky eye syndrome). That’s what Kaylie says when she’s crying, she says she has leaky eyes so now I’m calling it leaky eye syndrome. The internet calls it epiphora.
Begin definition:
Watering eye, also known as epiphora or tearing, is a condition in which there is an overflow of tears onto the face, often without a clear explanation. Epiphora happens when there is either an overproduction of tears or insufficient tear film drainage from the eye or eyes.
End definition.
I realize the definition doesn’t match what I’m meaning but I’m still calling it L.E.S., I wish I knew what was wrong with me, but I don’t. I have bursts of tears falling and then I’m alright but the moment someone asks me how I’m doing they come crashing around me again. Traitor tears. I called my therapist and we’re going to have a session today so hopefully I’ll feel better after talking to her, I usually do. I don’t see as often as I used to as she told me I don’t need her much anymore, but she says that I can always call if I need to, so I did. My thoughts have become too much for me to manage on my own I suppose, you think you’re okay, but life has a way of proving that you aren’t.
I’m sorry that I haven’t been so positive in the past few days. I try to continue to be, but I haven’t been able to keep it up. I sort of feel like it’s what people expect of me so when I can’t be I feel like I’m letting everyone down. It’s like I’m supposed to be this happy go lucky girl all of the time and I just can’t be, my feelings just don’t’ allow it so I try to stay away from twitter and other social media platforms, so I don’t let you all down. So, what I’m saying is, I’m so sorry if I have been negative and haven’t felt so grate lately. I’m working on getting back to my overly cheerful self and hopefully I’ll be there again soon. Thanks for understanding. I know I’m not expected to be cheerful all the time, I just feel that way because of some comments I have gotten from certain people that are around me.

I get to meet with my job coach today so I’m pretty excited about that. I’m hoping that we will find something for me to do as a second job. More applications will have to be filled out and sent back to the businesses and I’m ready for it, one of them will hopefully like my resume and call me in for an interview.

Other than that, I’m pretty much going to be a home body as the weather isn’t playing nice. Heat and humidity make it hard to want to go outdoors. We’re supposed to have temps in the high nineties with heat indices in the low 100s, I’m so not down with this at all.
Tonight, severe thunderstorms are in the forecast, I wouldn’t be surprised if we end up in a severe thunderstorm watch before too long. Mayhap they will bring cooler temperatures and lower dew points. One can only hope.

That was written this morning.

Time: 8:05 PM.

It’s now evening here, and I’ve got an update for the day.

I spoke with my therapist like I said I was going to do, and she did help me a bit. At least I don’t feel like bursting into tears over every little thing. We have a few plans in the works now so I feel so much better than I did. I’m still feeling a bit out of sorts, but I think I’m going to be just fine now.

I did meet with my job coach, and she’s got a couple of things she’s looking into, she’s going on vacation next week, so I won’t hear from her until the week after. For my part I’m going to try and search for jobs on my own still using Indeed like always. I’m thinking between the two of us we will come up with something I can do.

See? I’m feeling more positive than I was earlier which is a very good thing.

I’m going to start recording again.
There are so many songs I want to do vocals for and I’m excited about singing again. There are two songs by an artist called Melanie Martinez, one is titled Dollhouse, and the other is called Soap. I absolutely adore these two songs, Dollhouse is kind of creepy sounding and I think that’s one of the reasons I like it so much. That song is pretty much my childhood theme song. Everyone thought we were this perfect family, but they never knew what went on behind closed doors and heaven forbid if anyone ever found out. I have a few more songs saved that I’d like to cover as well so I’m definitely chomping at the bit to get back at it.

Well, I’m going to say goodnight for now as I’m getting tired, and I still haven’t eaten my dinner. Wishing you all a wonderful rest of the evening and a restful night.
I’ll try and write again soon.

Early Morning Update

Quote of the Day:
You look in the mirror and sometimes see a mess of a human being. But you don’t see the lives you’ve touched, or the people you’ve saved. You don’t see all the love you’ve given freely, or the extraordinary memories you’ve made. You are a book of beautiful moments and feelings.
Author Unknown

Greetings Humans.

It’s 6:33 in the AM here in Mankato as I begin to write and I’m tired, so very very tired. Not just physically but emotionally and mentally as well, I’m finding it hard to be positive anymore about this living situation. It seems that when I write it’s usually about wanting to move or trying to find a second job, such a boring life I lead currently. LOL!
The new home search hasn’t gone very well, everything’s either too expensive or already rented by the time I find them and call for information or they don’t’ allow pets under any circumstances. I’m sorry but I’m not willing to part with my fur babies. How do you give up a cat that you’ve raised from kittenhood to adult cathood? Luna’s nine now and has been with me since she was old enough to leave her mom and Mia’s been with me since Kaylie came here and I’m very much attached to her. Then there’s cute little almost nine month old Freya, she’s brought so much life and light back into this place. It would be so hard to part with either of them, it’d be like having to decide to give up one of your children. I just can’t do it. I need a house, that’s the answer but even that’s a dream because I can’t afford one of those either. There is something I’m going to try though and I’m hopeful that it will work. There’s a program for first time home buyers and from what I’m understanding is that they help you with loans or grants that go towards your down payment, so I’m looking into that with the help of Vampy. He knows more about this thing then I do but I’m also doing my own research as well. Our lease ends at the end of July and I refuse to sign another one if I don’t have too.
By the way, Vampy is just a nickname for a friend of ours, that isn’t actually his real name. Just wanted to clarify in case someone read this thing and asks WTF?

I’ve been watching Heartland and I’m hooked, I’ve just started the seventh season last night before going to bed and it’s just amazing.
Jack Bartlett owns a ranch called Heartland, it’s been in his family for six generations. He has two granddaughters, Amy Fleming who has a gift for healing horses that have been abused or those that others see as untamable and unrideable. This gift was passed down from the girl’s mother Marian who sadly died in an accident. Sorry for the spoiler, I don’t’ like those either. She’s often referred to as the miracle girl. The other is Lou Fleming who annoys me to no end! She is so bossy and, in my opinion, very self-centered. Lou is all about Lou. She’s the older of the two but she acts younger than Amy, at least I think she does most times. Tim Fleming is Amy and Lou’s father, he also annoys me to no end but the interactions between he and Jack make me laugh at times. Jack kind of makes me think of my own grandfather and I just want to give him a hug. There are sad moments in this show that have had me in tears and some that have had me laughing pretty hard. Lots of show jumping, barrel racing and various other rodeo type activities are also performed. There’s something that Amy learns as well that’s like horse dancing is the best way for me to describe it, I don’t remember what they call it but she uses dressage whips as some of her cues for the horses to follow her commands. No, she doesn’t whip the horses or anything like that, she just uses them as visual cues. It’s a very action packed show and if you love horses you will love this show.

Well, I need to run because I have three little princess cats that I need to tend to but if you’ve ever wanted to make your own spaghetti sauce I have a recipe for you. It contains celery but I don’t’ believe that belongs in spaghetti sauce so I leave it out.

Easy Homemade Spaghetti Sauce

INGREDIENTS:

Olive oil
2 pounds ground beef
6 to 8 onions
6 cloves garlic, minced
1/2 cup chopped celery
1 (12 ounce) can tomato paste
2 (28 ounce) can tomatoes
1/2 cup chopped green pepper
1/4 cup salt
1 tablespoon black pepper
1/4 teaspoon allspice
Dash of hot sauce
Dash of oregano
1 tablespoon sugar
1 tablespoon cider vinegar
1 cup sliced mushrooms
1 teaspoon parsley
Dash of hot pepper
1 cup grated Cheddar cheese, optional

DIRECTIONS:

Brown beef in skillet in small amount of olive oil. Add remaining ingredients, except cheese and cook until vegetables are tender and flavors have blended, about 1 hour. Add cheese for last 15 minutes of cooking.

Very simple and tasty too.

Alright, I’m off for now. Wishing you all a day filled with much love and positivity. Remember to always try to find the light, don’t allow the darkness to overcome you. I’m working on this one myself now.
Bye for now.

Posting From Here Once Again

Good evening/morning depending on how you chooses to look at the time.

It’s been so long since I have posted here but I’m back. I’m still going to post from where I have been posting, I’ll just be posting here as well. For those who have been wondering where my other entries are the link is:

http://www.livejournal.com and my user name is solsticekitty89.

Just wanted to give a quick update to let you all know this and to say I’m not dead, I’m definitely still alive and kicking.
Also to give another option for those aren’t able to read my LJ.

Everyone take care, I’ll write again soon.

Second job, denied!

Quote of the Day:
Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict.
William Ellery Channing

Greetings Readers.

The quote I have chosen for today is something I needed to see, I got a bit of discouraging news last night when checking e-mail and I just needed this. While I’m not in a conflict with anyone I think it still applies. The human spirit grows strong by disappointment, I believe it makes one work harder to find what will eventually make one happy. Sure, it’s all right to be down about it for a bit but then you got to get back out there and keep going. The news I got was something that made me disappointed but I’m resilient and I will persevere.
So, what is this news that was so disappointing you may be asking? Well, I didn’t get the job I had applied for, and I feel sad about it. I know they must have had their reason but after the interview and being told that it went very well, I was thinking that maybe, just maybe I would get it. I’m not arrogant or anything, it just sounded so positive. I do congratulate the person that did get it though, I’m happy for him or her. While I was excited and really wanted that job, I know that even though I didn’t get this one I’ll find something. I’m not giving up the search, eventually I’ll find one meant for me.

The apartment hunt continues.
For the past couple of days, I have bene madly searching for a new home for us to move to. So far? Nothing. Everything is either too expensive or already has been rented out. I’ve even searched for townhomes and regular houses for rent and still, nope. those are just not affordable, more expensive than apartments in fact. So, today the search continues. I refuse to sign another lease here if I don’t’ have to. There are a couple available now, wonder if my current residents will complain about us leaving with one month left of our lease? With all of the crap that we’ve had to put up with for the past three years, they should just let us go without a fight. Besides from what I’m hearing there’s a waiting list to get into here. More power to the next person who rents this place.

So, I’ve got a treat for you today when it comes to recipes!
Ice Cream Sundae Pie, sounds delicious, doesn’t it? I thought so.
Now I personally haven’t made this one yet, but I definitely intend to, it would make an excellent summertime dessert.

Ice Cream Sundae Pie

INGREDIENTS:

1 chocolate flavored pie crust
1 quart ice cream, softened
1 (12 ounce) jar chocolate fudge topping
Whipped cream
Maraschino cherries
Walnuts

DIRECTIONS:

Spoon softened ice cream into crust. Cover and freeze until firm, about 3 hours. Serve pie wedges with fudge topping, whipped cream and cherries. Add nuts, if desired.

Seems simple enough I think. If you do get the chance to make this delectable sounding pie let me know and also tell me if you liked it. Enjoy!

Well, that’s it from here for now. Take care of yourselves and one another. As always I’m wishing you much positivity and blessings.
I know you can’t see me, but I’m waving goodbye. *giggle*.

Second job, denied!

Quote of the Day:

Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict.
William Ellery Channing

Greetings LJ Readers.

The quote I have chosen for today is something I needed to see, I got a bit of discouraging news last night when checking e-mail and I just needed this. While I’m not in a conflict with anyone I think it still applies. The human spirit grows strong by disappointment, I believe it makes one work harder to find what will eventually make one happy. Sure, it’s all right to be down about it for a bit but then you got to get back out there and keep going. The news I got was something that made me disappointed but I’m resilient and I will persevere.
So, what is this news that was so disappointing you may be asking? Well, I didn’t get the job I had applied for, and I feel sad about it. I know they must have had their reason but after the interview and being told that it went very well, I was thinking that maybe, just maybe I would get it. I’m not arrogant or anything, it just sounded so positive. I do congratulate the person that did get it though, I’m happy for him or her. While I was excited and really wanted that job, I know that even though I didn’t get this one I’ll find something. I’m not giving up the search, eventually I’ll find one meant for me.

The apartment hunt continues.
For the past couple of days, I have bene madly searching for a new home for us to move to. So far? Nothing. Everything is either too expensive or already has been rented out. I’ve even searched for townhomes and regular houses for rent and still, nope. those are just not affordable, more expensive than apartments in fact. So, today the search continues. I refuse to sign another lease here if I don’t’ have to. There are a couple available now, wonder if my current residents will complain about us leaving with one month left of our lease? With all of the crap that we’ve had to put up with for the past three years, they should just let us go without a fight. Besides from what I’m hearing there’s a waiting list to get into here. More power to the next person who rents this place.

So, I’ve got a treat for you today when it comes to recipes!
Ice Cream Sundae Pie, sounds delicious, doesn’t it? I thought so.
Now I personally haven’t made this one yet, but I definitely intend to, it would make an excellent summertime dessert.

Ice Cream Sundae Pie

INGREDIENTS:

1 chocolate flavored pie crust
1 quart ice cream, softened
1 (12 ounce) jar chocolate fudge topping
Whipped cream
Maraschino cherries
Walnuts

DIRECTIONS:

Spoon softened ice cream into crust. Cover and freeze until firm, about 3 hours. Serve pie wedges with fudge topping, whipped cream and cherries. Add nuts, if desired.

Seems simple enough I think. If you do get the chance to make this delectable sounding pie let me know and also tell me if you liked it. Enjoy!

Well, that’s it from here for now. Take care of yourselves and one another. As always I’m wishing you much positivity and blessings.
I know you can’t see me, but I’m waving goodbye. *giggle*.

Dark and Stormy Morning

Quote of the day:
“Magic exists. Who can doubt it, when there are rainbows and wildflowers, the music of the wind and the silence of the stars? Anyone who has loved has been touched by magic. It is such a simple and such an extraordinary part of the lives we live.”
Nora Roberts

Good morning LJ Readers.

It was a dark and stormy morning at the Fox Den in Mankato Minnesota and Winter was awakened by booming thunder and the sound of pouring rain. The cats sensing someone was up in the house followed the unsuspecting older Kitty to the living room hoping for their morning treats, however it was too early being that it was only 5:13 AM and their tasties didn’t come until seven or eight. You can about imagine the three princess’s disappointment when Winter kitty sat down in front of her computer to check the weather to see how bad things were because she was under a severe thunderstorm watch until 8:00 AM. Learning that it wasn’t to be that bad she decided to start writing and the three princesses sadly went back to their various royal sleeping places, Princess Freya under Winter’s desk, Princess Mia back to curl up next to Kaylie and Princess Luna found her soft comfy cat bed. Unfortunately, the princess kitties just had to wait until their regular time to get those tasties that they so badly craved.

LOL! Writing like that was kind of fun. I should really get back in to creating stories again, I found that immensely enjoyable.

I wanted to wish you all a happy Memorial Day, those who celebrate it at any rate. Today while gathering with family and friends, never forget the fallen who sacrificed their lives so that we may have the freedoms that we enjoy now. If this isnt’ a day that you observe and celebrate I hope your day is filled with many blessings and much positivity. Know that you are all loved, cherished and that you matter always.

Yesterday Kaylie was at the ER. Both of us have bene waking up in the mornings with headaches and we don’t know what is causing them, only hers have been far worse than mine have been. She’s had this issue for about a week and mine have been happening for about the last four mornings. Along with her headaches she’s been getting dizzy, feeling weak, getting nauseous feverish and light sensitivity. I’m not sure if she told me anything else she’s been feeling but she’s been pretty bad and had a bunch of us worried. Part of that sounds like migraine symptoms and it’s possible that she’s getting those because those run in her family. Her mother, sisters and one of her uncles get them pretty bad. I myself am a migraine sufferer but my genetics are not tied to hers obviously. LOL! Anyway, they did a CT (cat scan) and a whole hosts of blood work to see if they could spot the problem. Both the CT and the bloodwork came back normal, the doctor said the next step would be to do a spinal tap to evaluate her spinal fluids to see if they could pinpoint anything because of her frequent headaches or to rule out spinal meningitis. They did say that it was unlikely that she had the latter because if she did have it, she’d already be dead, that needs to be treated quickly to avoid that. They also said that she could have a mild case of spinal meningitis and the only way to treat that is…well there’s nothing they can do for treatment, she’d just have to ride it out for the next week or so. They decided not to go that route, the spinal tap that is. it’s a painful process and the doctor said he’d either do more harm the good or good then harm if he did this meaning he could introduce an infection that isnt’ there. In the end, they sent her home with a couple prescriptions that they’re hoping will help her with the nausea and the headaches, they gave her a steroid before releasing her which they said should last about three days. She did say she was feeling somewhat better so this makes me glad. Now to figure out my headaches, I didn’t wake with one this morning and thank the goddess for that! The only thing I’m feeling at this moment is a bit of neck pain but it’s a dull ache, nothing that isn’t manageable.

Before I run off to find breakfast and make coffee, have a recipe for Chocolate Peanut Butter Dessert. It sounds heavenly to me.

Chocolate Peanut Butter Dessert

INGREDIENTS:

2 cups graham cracker crumbs
1/2 cup butter, melted
2/3 cup chopped peanuts
1/2 cup peanut butter
1 (8 ounce) package cream cheese
1 cup powdered sugar
1 (12 ounce) container whipped topping
1 ( serving-size) box instant chocolate pudding mix
1 (4 serving-size) box instant vanilla pudding mix
3 cups milk
1 chocolate candy bar

DIRECTIONS:

Combine graham cracker crumbs, butter and peanuts. Press into bottom of 9 by 13 inch pan. Cream together peanut butter and cream cheese. Add powdered sugar; mix well. Fold in whipped topping. Spread on crust. Mix pudding mixes with milk. Pour on top of Cream Cheese Layer. Chill for 5 minutes to set. Top with remaining whipped topping. Shave chocolate bar for garnish. Chill for 2 hours.

I’m hoping that worked to put the recipe behind a cut, I know it didn’t work before but I’m still trying to remember how all of this works. Normally I use word press but I decided to go back to this for a while.

Anyway, the storms have passed for now so I’m off for that said breakfast and coffee hunt. Have a wonderful Monday everyone!
Take care of yourselves and one another.
Bye bye!

Ramblings From a Sleepy Kitty

Quote of the day:
Never be afraid to raise your voice for honesty and truth and compassion against injustice and lying and greed. If people all over the world…would do this, it would change the earth.
William Faulkner

Hey LJ Readers, I hope this morning finds you all doing well.

I’m awake way too early and I’m not sure why. I’m so tired but for some reason I am unable to sleep anymore. I suppose it’s because I’ve got too much on my mind and don’t know how to shut off my brain long enough to allow myself to drift off. I’m hungry too and that’s never a good thing, way too early to eat breakfast or make coffee. Hmm, coffee. Might be a good idea after all? I don’t know, I can’t think straight. Sleep, yes sleep. I need more sleep. Ugh!

My appointments went well yesterday and for that I am glad.
I’m still waiting to hear back from my job interview from Tuesday but that will be early next week I’d think since they will be making their final decision either today or tomorrow. Hoping I get a yes, I could really use the extra financial boost, it would definitely help us with getting out of this area we are in now.

A little recipe for those who love their iced tea, I do but this one sounds a bit too sugary for my taste buds.

Lipton Brisk Iced Tea

INGREDIENTS:

3 Lipton tea bags (regular size)
1 cup plus 2 tablespoons granulated sugar
1/2 teaspoon Kool-Aid lemonade unsweetened drink mix

DIRECTIONS:

Bring 2 quarts of water to a boil in a large saucepan. Add the tea bags and remove the pan from the heat. Let the tea steep for at least 1 hour. Pour the granulated sugar and Kool-Aid drink mix into a 2-quart pitcher. Add the tea and stir so that the sugar dissolves. Add additional water if necessary to bring the tea to the 2-quart mark on the pitcher. Chill well before serving.
Makes 2 quarts.

Personally, I think that there’s way too much sugar in there for just two quarts, some like their sugar though so to each their own. For me though, way too sweet for my tastes, I can’t eat or drink anything too sweet anymore. Perhaps it can be adjusted though? Hmmm, something to consider if I make this drink.

That’s all I’ve got for now, I just wanted to give a small update since I was up and needing a bit of a distraction from my thoughts.
I hope you all have a wonderful day.

The Good, The Bad And The World’s ugliness

Good evening LJ Readers.

I’ve bene sitting here thinking instead of sleeping like I should be doing, but I can’t.
I saw a news story today that has me feeling all sorts of emotions: anger because I don’t’ understand how laws haven’t been put in place for gun control especially after Sandy Hook, sadness because children again were targets of a mad man who decided that shooting up an elementary school was a good idea and the loss of life has me heartbroken, and confusion because this was allowed to happen again because of no gun control laws after mass shootings or any shooting for that matter just to name a few. Nineteen children and 3 adults or that was the last count I heard were killed in Texas in a mass school shooting, I want to know why. I want to know why and how this could happen…again. Why do we not have better gun control laws? Why are people who are mentally unstable allowed to just go out there and purchase a gun? You know, I have been reading a series where guns are banned and the penalty for owning one is prison time if you are caught. Why can’t it be like that here? Why are there blueprints on how to 3D print a gun? I hate guns with a passion! I know I know, everyone keeps telling me that it isn’t the gun that kills it’s the person behind the gun. Yes, I know this! I am very much aware of this fact, but people who shouldn’t have them keep getting their hands on them. When are changes going to be made? How many more children have to die at the hands of a killer before new laws come into effect? How many more families have to grieve for the loss of a loved one, not just a child but a loved one? I’m so afraid to sleep right now, I’m afraid of the dreams that may come from this story. I wish, I wish I could make all the changes on my own because if it were up to me guns wouldn’t exist in this world anymore. They would all be banished never to be seen again, never to be used for the purpose of murder. I don’t care if people carry them for protection, there are other ways. There are other ways to protect yourself, guns are not needed. What about hunting you may be asking? Well, that’s easy, go back to the use of the bow and arrow like was done way back in the times of history where the Native Americans hunted. We could have learned a lot from them. I don’t want to think anymore. You can say I’m narrow minded but that’s alright with me. Guns just should not exist and they are evil tools.
I can’t do this, I can’t think about this anymore. My eyes are teary again.

So I came across this recipe that looks interesting, I want to try to make it. It’s for banana rhubarb pie, I love both bananas and rhubarb so I think it could be wonderful. I think the next time I have the money I will go and get the ingredients for it.
Now I’m going to try and put this behind a cut, not sure if I’ll be successful as I haven’t done this in ages but here goes. If it doesn’t work, I apologize.


Banana Rhubarb Pie

INGREDIENTS:

1 pound rhubarb, sliced (3 cups)
3 medium ripe bananas, peeled and sliced (3 cups)
1 cup sugar
1/4 cup orange juice
3 tablespoons flour
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
1/4 teaspoon nutmeg
2 (9 inch) pie crusts
1 tablespoon butter or margarine

DIRECTIONS:

Combine rhubarb, bananas, sugar, orange juice, flour, salt, cinnamon and nutmeg; pour into pastry-lined pie plate. Dot with butter. Preheat oven to 450 degrees. Place top crust on filling; cut vents. Bake for 15 minutes; reduce oven temperature to 350 degrees and bake for 30 minutes longer, or until pie is brown. Cool completely.

If you try this recipe, I hope it turns out good and that you enjoy it.

I had my job interview today and it went well, even my interviewer said that she thought it went well. She said that they’ll be making a decision for the position on either Thursday or Friday so hopefully I’ll know something by early next week. I was nervous but there was no need to be, she was so nice and fun too. It was definitely one of the most light hearted interviews I’ve ever had. So, I wait which is the hardest part.\

Well, I’m off I think. I have two doctor’s appointments tomorrow and I need to try and catch some zees. I’m sorry for the rant starting off this posting but I just…I needed to get it all out. I’m still worried about sleeping but I need to try.

I hope you all have a good night and take care of yourselves. Hug your loved ones tight and let them know you love them because you just never know, you just never know.

Love from an upset kitty.

Keeping Fingers Crossed

Greetings LJ!

This morning while on route to work I got a phone call from my job coach and do you know what she told me? She told me that I have a job interview tomorrow at 4:15 PM. It’s the job that I applied for last week. I thought it might be longer before i heard anything but imagine my surprise when the call came in telling me they want to interview me on Tuesday. Oh how nervous I am but excited too. They asked my job coach if I’d be comfortable with leading an activity with 10-15 people and she said she was sure that I would be. I told her that yes, I’d be fine doing that. Squeeeeeeeee! I’ll keep you all posted on how things go. Keeping fingers and everything else that I can cross that things go well.

Today I was speaking with one of my co-workers at work and she told me how to make homemade tartar sauce for fish. It sounds super easy and I’m going to try it the next time I have fish for dinner. Speaking of fish she also told me that i should try mahi mahi, usually I love my tilapia but I’m willing to try something new. She also mentioned orange roughy which I remember that type of fish from when I was little. My mother used to make that one all the time. I didn’t appreciate the health benefits of that particular food back then but now that I’m older I totally get it. The problem with orange roughy though is that it’s hard to find now, at least that’s what my co-worker tells me but she says that you cna find mahi mahi so I’ll look for that one. Talking about fish is making me hungry for it. Hmm, maybe fish for dinner tomorrow evening? Yep I think so, I do have some tilapia in the freezer. I’ll make that with some veggies.

Well, I’m tired so I’m off I think. I’ll write again soon.
Take care of yourselves.
Goodnight to my readers.